Today i got a lesson from MOE, bout stupids stuffs, hmmm, i feelin so damn, holdin on and puttin up a brave front n being happy but feel so miserable.

Last night, a frenz of mine call me or should i say early this mornin? eh, but to me, he is more den a frenz, juz tt i din tell him, callin me tellin me he is sad, wan someone to talk to, yet he is abit drunk~ but den again, i know he is sad n unhappy, i wan to cheer him up, try counsil him to no vaild.

So i tell him, he can always tell him his prob, i believe he know tt, but he say tt he don wan say out as he is scared tt he may cry out, and he don wan to cry, i ask him treat me as a guy, but he said tt the more he wont cry out in front of guy, den i ask him treat me like a little child, he reply sayin tt little children also will know tt ur cryin so at witend, i tell him to treat me like a baby, as baby are so innocent n they know nth(or do they know all but donno how to show it?) he juz laugh at it.

He hang up sayin he got a msg comin in n he cant msg n talk on his lousy phone at the same time, i agree n waited for him, but he nv called back, so damn worried. I entertain myself, sayin he will be fine, as he is a grown-up, or maybe he has fallen aslp? tt even beta, i really hope he will tell me wat happen.

This world, alots of ppl who claim tt their heart are make of stone are the most fragil~, everyone is make of meat n flesh n nerves system which have feelin n emotion, who went to pain. But den, no pain, no gain, a brave front is good, but all the time is tiring, needa a break too.

Why m i talkin bout him? cuz i care, he may nv haven a chance nor know i have this blog here but who care? i juz needa to say it out~ i wan him to know i care alot bout him, but i juz wont tell him.

Carin is good, is nice, its sweet, to care for a person n support wat rite n help him in need, but silent care is tough, real tough, he may not know but who are, u willin to help him in the dark, secretly, knowin he is well is fine even if he nv will know bout it~ as tt always the fact as u hide it from him.

Parents too, they care bout u, but they juz don wan to say it out, they care in different ways~ unqiue, u may think they are bias, unfair, mad, watever u wan say but in the end, its for ur own goods, yet they are special cases.

Today i cant even have a proper lunch, nor can i have peace when eatin or doin thingy at all, damn upset, pissed off. BUt its make great sense, i bring it onto myself, as least tt wat i tot, though i don wan admit but cant they juz shutup awhile?

Mami werid, ask me go out with frenz don always stay at home, frenz date u, go out n walk walk, but at 10pm, she will start callin n scold me for not being home yet, i know cuz she worried, she care, but den again, why ask me go out in the first place? contridicting huh... but why i juz so dislike it? i know she care yet i m angry at it, maybe cuz the method used is wrong, givin in at times, but hope she may used other method, too much happenin will affect ur moods regardless how u try to ignore or avoid it~!