Here's a story of a girl,
 Living in the lonely world,
 A hidden note, A secret crush,
 A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
 And when you smile I check you out,
 But you don't even know my name,
 You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
 If you lose your way,
 I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
 If I change my clothes,
 Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
 If I say hello,
 Will you notice me?


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两个世界的人，可以是朋友、可以是仇人、可以错身而过，但是如果 他们相爱了，结局只有走上灭绝的命运。就像飞鸟恋上鱼，拼了命想 厮守一起，但却是害了对方，毁了自己。

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Saturday, April 22, 2006
2:31:00 PM

My koren kor kor went oversea to thailand... Today is the third day le. Hope he is enjoying himself... Wow, rofl, but he still can be online sia, but the connection there is not very good...

Haix, always wanted to chat with you and wat so ever, i really miss you alot... to like someone is a torture... Its is both a pleasure yet frustrating to be love.

SHAN BU HUI YIN SHI JIAN ER DAN , KE SHI NI HUI YIN SHI JIAN ER MAN MAN XI GUAN TONG

Aww, mami went out.. rofl, my project work haven start at all yet.

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, April 20, 2006
7:09:00 PM

wow, teacher are gettin more n more... haix, nvm... tio kan yet i m so happy of wat he say, faster do it ba... rofl..

omg, same group with nicolas... rofl... gp project and geog project... He went with some gal to eat at paya leba there and he ask if i would like to go along, but i told him i have to go back home, other day, he was like, why? Sound funny for a normal frenz to ask, rofl, i think too much again..

WOw, my class guys really like to disturb me.. but quite nice n close with me, even wan help me in sch work... So sweet of them... maybe they wan disturbin at time but they mean no harm actually like havin some fun ba... I do have real nice classmate but some are abit annoying, over act enthu is irritatin though =X

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, April 19, 2006
7:32:00 PM


I got back my hp le, was so happy sia, wow~ yeah~ yahoo~

today we got the mindef talks... got three officers, one lady n two guy, one is from ocs or izzi two. omg, tt ocs guy is so cute sia, think his name is Fung Hei. Hongkonger. Tt wat he say or izzi taiwan?

My mami always try to spoilt my happy day... rofl.. cuz today i m so happy, he got reply me, one msg or call from him nia, i will be so damn happy lor... rofl... abit too easy to be contented rite... but i m serious...

Wow, my son, strawberry, donno when he become my son sia, he got stalk by girls sia, wow three somemore, see so famous like mami, so well-like, he muz be very cute.. =X

Will you ever notice me...

Tuesday, April 18, 2006
7:44:00 PM

Where are you? Juz where in the where are you? I m worried sick, Really very worried... I miss you... Jensen, i hope you are alright.

Haix, why all aimin me, so wat if i m a cheerleader, m i well known, i don think so, why they hate me so much? haix... I m so sad... so alone, so depress...

Last night we have conference till 4am plus sia..

Today YAMAHA banned me from lancraft for no reason, so i juz stand up for my rite and rofl, i got unban n i shooted him back... noob...

I wonder how many ppl actually read my blog, maybe alot, maybe non.. but who really care, juz look so plain, noone leave me comment, so sad.. rofl... but at least i can say wat i wan... vent my anger, share my prob, though noone will know, i pray i feel beta, lying to myself and hidin the truth...

Will you ever notice me...

Monday, April 17, 2006
6:33:00 PM

Last night, i have very big conflict with my mother, really quarreling and shoutin thru the whole house... i once again make her cry, its so unfilal of me lor... *sobsob* i was still on conference with my frenz, one of them is my classmate somemore... Feel so bad tt they got scolded by my mother and even have names to them.

Today i can get back my phone but to my disappoint, it need to be retain two more days, as there is still problem croppin up... =( My grandpa was ard woo, he come to sg... ^^
wow, i got back my dotarian de xs, i even got cine de xs... so high sia... wa... my mami willing to loan me her phone with my sim card..

Will you ever notice me...

Sunday, April 16, 2006
4:44:00 PM

WOw, sHinigami was being reg, application was being sent... two weeks more if nth go wrong, its very own friendster is also up.

I donno why i doin it, but i m so bored, so much time, n i wan to make myself busy, doin something meaningful... =)

My mami sot sot de, keep scoldin n shoutin ard the house, really like a mad dog barkin...

Today mami make curry puffs, was so happy, last night was chattin on the phone with *youknowwho* i was so glad n delight, been so long since i last talk to him... *blush*

Argh, i wan my phone back.. faster.... cant do without it.. i cant use my hse phone as mami kpkb. so pissed off sia. haix, with hp, ppl can call me... so sian n lonely... still need to wait, tonight will be without my phone, omg, tml i have PE!!!

Will you ever notice me...

Saturday, April 15, 2006
6:31:00 PM


TOday i got a new auth nick, wow, ytd i went out with my frenz, (andy, ronny n his frenz bryan) hmm, bryan got my no after tt, was quite fun ba, i went to visit one my my GAN-MA (alan delon promoter).

We hold gay conference till very late bout 4am plus sia, den tt guy call me till 6am plus sia....and i wakey up at 10am plus... so early, not enuff slp.

hmm, i got a new auth nick. makin tt channel (a new clan channel). Helpin out... feel great to be of use. My sch cannival is so near, gettin nearer n nearer. So excited.

TOday mami bring daddi new phone n my phone to services, only by mon will it be fine, aiyo, so long, den this weekend how... sian... haix... Do u think i can wait??

They are always havin conflict, keep askin me go, try to force me, always the same, even try to drag me go... -.-zZz

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, April 13, 2006
6:21:00 PM

HaR, CIP days again, so boring, new frenz, can i get along... was so worried bout all this last night, but today when i m doing my duty, all my worried are of extra... so much fun.

Wa, my team mate, so fun, okay, not bad.. got emily, victoria, johnathon, jeff, hieker, niclos and me...

We spilt up but my team always the fastest, so we swap, still the fatest, we are gosu^^

I come across a so-call huanted house.. *shiver* The outside of tt flat is with wind-chime, afews of them... the door is open wide, well, the wooden door is not close, or did it have one, the metal door is half open, den it is painted red in colour. there is a alter for like goddess or prayin purpose, there is noone inside tt house, den inside is ao dark n creepy, with cardboard or wood plank...

Wow, jeff play dota, he join dotarian too, hmm, dinno tt till today, his frenz ba, his nick is frog... rofl... my classmate sia... new classmate...

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, April 12, 2006
7:24:00 AM

Wow, been so long since i last return to sch, been so sick, hmm, today i heard my gp lecture teacher say tt he actually read some of our blog.. talkin bout sch teacher or wat.. i was so curious how they know of our blog addy... and as if they know which is ours, so many same name ppl and moreover, the blog name may be weird... how they link to us...

Been so long, finally, i can use the comp...

Hmm, xs removed, but fine with me, only hope it is he who remove not someone else...

But talkin bout, today we did msg quite abit, real happy... ^^ well, he say as if i don wan him, maybe it is he don wan me... lol~ cuz i din call him, he can call me rite, and it is he who wan a few day to relax.. den now he no voice also... lol.. weirdo....

My class keep havin new classmate, quite cute, watever la... Aww, so lotsa to share but i gettin greedy wan keep to myself liao... =X

Will you ever notice me...

Monday, April 10, 2006
5:35:00 PM

Argh, i got one week cannot touch comp, fucker mami... keep talkin bout study, make me so fan, was so happily come home... haix... today at first was so happy... but now i m so fedup n sad n pissed off... argh!~ hate it, she let me use one hr, as if one hr is so great, as if it is enuff sia... fucker!!!! Afterall, it has been three to four days i cant touch my comp le, a few more days wont die, and it can make ppl treasure and miss me, i hope... *sobsob*

the most two hr, siao, two hr can do wat, i rather don online.... don use lor, let them miss me, as if got ppl miss me... haix, i m feelin beta, i hope, den why can go sch cannot online... use one hr can do wat fuck sia, nth at all lor, not shoick at all... ARGH!!!! torture, i miss me sia, so very the miss him.... =( m so upset.... i know i showin my frenz attitute...

he msg me today, always late night msg, but beta den nth, den afternoon i msg him, he reply, so was delighted sia... wow, feel so sweet n warmth, he even say sorry, so hard, but why wont he take care, always sick, now no voice sia... haix, i heart pain!!!

I tot they care bout me... argh, will die sia, okok, they do care, juz tt they way they express not very good, cuz tt time, my dad was workin halfway, he call back home to check on me... mami even buy kinder surprise for me ^^ got cute toys wor... don wan tell u... (*^_^*)\/

Will you ever notice me...

Friday, April 07, 2006
3:51:00 PM

Awww, feel so sweet yet scare, feel that he is cold towards me, ask him, den he explain, havin an explaination is a nice feelin, my depression if i really do have is makin me worst as a person now... make me so unsure of myself... can he stand me? i don think so... I MUZ HAVE CONFIDENCE.

Haiz, i prepared hao le wan go sch yet problem arose, keep pukin, Mami tot it was an excuse but it aint, i m so xin ku... haix, feel so lonely, takin a nap and wakin up in sadness or shock... cuzin me to be in tears.... How i wish he will pei me go see doc but den, even if i have other offering but i m hopin for him, but its ok, he have to work, he is busy, he wan some time....

Later will be going to see doc again, even mami suggest tt, cuz i seem to be gettin worst den better.. haix.... sick, so sick.....

Think it will be sometime den i online le... I will be like online for 5-10min blog, den offline... so sick, so dreamy, so weak, so longin for him....

Sometime no seein n not knowin is a blessing in disguse. I cant be without you, shall dedicate the song below for you, i not sure will you get to read this blog.. haix....

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, April 06, 2006
2:31:00 PM


Wow, feelin cheerful, its all a misunderstand, but it lead from one to another... my fault... lol, but think this have cost me to lost someone i like? Wow, she pm the worn person n wan scold but den, its got to me, we end up chattin, think it clear abit of the air...

Hmm, my long lost kor give me a call though... was kinda glad, at least suddenly there is a voice of concern, rite? well, he use to be my sch cook though.. lol~ gosu me, he give me a call, was so happy, but den, nth can cover wat i felt for someone else... the missin n answer i got... die-ed.

Havin nice ppl cheering me up is nice, feelin of warm, well, mami everyday shout shout shout, threaten threaten threaten... take match stick burn my room, burn lor, as if i really care... Sick, i m scare of meetin ppl, new ppl, don wan, i like everything also scare ar... lol, so weak of me...

Angel full of love ar, think i should change to angel lack of love... lol~ but den again, i m hopin for love rite? rofl... http://forgottenlove.com/read.php i went to read tt, so touchin, make me wanna cry... maybe tt wat almost every gal wish for, love, true love, which will last, beta don think or hope too much, the higher the hope, the greater the disappointment.. the faster n harder you fall....

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, April 05, 2006
5:55:00 PM

Yawn, wakey at six, tried callin him, but he din pick up, was so worried he cant wakey n late for work, till a lady tell me, he went to work le, early mornin but forget bring phone, i try callin a few times, but den, really no choice, he havin duty today, haix, miss him sia...

I pratically slpt one whole days, so dreamy and weak and juz so xin ku, machiam in heaven le, the feelin not good, so lonely... how i wish to hear his voice now, but, its kinda hard ba... can hear mami tone of worried though she is scoldin n naggin, i lied, i din take meal or medi... haix...

why m i treatin myself like this, mux dote on myself ma... hmm, know tt other are concern, they tell me, don care bout those dn* ppl, they are childish too, though they are their frenz, they felt ashame...

he did msg me later on, kinda glad... today been a gloomy days... well, at evenin, den he asked did i find him for one day. hmm, at least got a nice soul jiayi help his take the phone from his hse to him, hope he wont be bored den... well, haix, why do i have so no appetite...

Haix, my appeal to Singapore Poly have been reply, its have been rejected le... So sad... wat else can i do, wait for RP ba, think also hopeless. my life is too down, feel like endin it... got scolded for nth.. watever, don wish to mention le... feel so helplessly lost!!! =~(

Will you ever notice me...

Tuesday, April 04, 2006
10:02:00 PM

OMG, seen the doc, wat she say, she check my eyes, ask me need spec not, i say no, she test me.. rofl, i really 6.6 eye sight sia... she ask my family anyone got high blood pressure... den she suspect i got depression... omg... haix, i keep it short for this one, very sad... this two days... give me relax pills, no used... haix, tell u more tml ba.. i go rest... Zzzz =~(

Will you ever notice me...

6:44:00 PM

OMG, THE JEALOUS, ITS OVERWHELMIN, I KNOW WHEN SHE CALL HIM... WHY! FUCK OFF LA, BITCH. HAI, WHY M I LIKE THIS... I CARE TOO MUCH, THINK SO MUCH, WAS QUITE HAPPY IN THE MORNING CUZ OF HIS ASSURANCE AND ALMOST FORGET BOUT IT, BUT NOW ITS HURTIN AGAIN, N EVEN MORE... I TESTED HIM, BUT THINK I GOT NEGATIVE RESULT...

I HATE MYSELF NOW, I HATE MY EMOTION, HOPELY ITS DUE TO SOMETHING.. LOL, BUT TOO BAD, HIS MOUTH TOO SWEET FOR ALL GALS? HMM, WHY SIA... I M SO PISSED OFF... SO... IZZI GOOD OR BAD? DID HE LIKE ME? CHOICES ARE THERE...

FUCKED UP GAL!!! I HATE HER!!! ONCE AGAIN, I HATE ANOTHER GAL... WHY MUZ THIS HAPPEN, WHY!!! M I SO LACK OF CARE, BUT WHY I DECIDED TT ITS HIM, I M SO NO APPETITE NOW...

YA I REALLY GOT THE WRONG HINT, FROM THE FIRST MSG, I GOT HURT, I HARM MYSELF... WHY!!! I CANT STOP MY TEAR, I CANT HELP CRYING.. I M... I BRING IT ON MYSELF... I DONNO IZZI SO HARD? SO... I DONNO... WHY MUZ SHE APPEAR N SPOILT IT? WHY GOT SOME NICE ONE, I DON WAN? I... HAIX... *SOBSOB* =~( I LET MY TEARS ROLL SO FREELY DOWN... NTH ELSE CAN I DO LE, NOR CAN I STOP MY TEARS LE.... M I SO DESPO? MAYBE, BUT WHY HIM? OMG... SO MANY THINGY HAPPEN, SACRAFIS... HAIX... SWEET MEMORIES N SWEET TALK NIA, ITS ALL A LIE!!!!

Will you ever notice me...

Monday, April 03, 2006
6:07:00 PM

ARGH, was so angry and piss of by a (25 yrs old gal) think so, tt wat he told me anyway... Omg, cant imagine... I felt the feelin, a weird feelin, which i nv try before or feel before, think its the feelin of jealousy.

He make me feel uneasy le, wat qiang bi say is correct ma? Really muz be careful... hmm, so? wow, gals sia, i donno la, really don like gal.

Today got PE in sch, really kill me sia, somemore make till my shirt so dirty lor... cuz of the crawlin under the bench on the cement floor... its kinda fun, well, its the first PE lesson i took after so long... So shag but i decided not to skip PE anymore.

Why m i so affect by it, when he keep sayin and talkin bout her... haix, guess its time to move on again... i feelin so upset, overwhelm with tears in my eyes.... FUCK UP!!!!!!! haix, there i goes again... i really very angry la... very... i m blur bout my emotion too... so wat if askin eat already, if u don like tt person, u bother to ask, nah... LEAVE HIM ALONE! his mine... nah, that too early to say, maybe he don belong to me either... As if he will wan me... rite?

Guess i m more n more famous le, ppl spammin my pic (old pics) and my frenzster de stuffs... So sad, so bery sad, maybe he still donno bout it. maybe if he know, he saw, he may don wan me? nah, i have confidence but so, diff ppl... guys are always guys wat... Will he care for me like i hope, i m still so affected... =~( cryin....

sometime ppl like to pretend to be pity, but do u know tt this sad or pity thingy are always kept to ownself.. pls lor, i nv tell u much bout my background, bout my hidden, wat for, sad out... i... nvm, i over-reacted... hai.. hate this feelin.... ignore me ba... there are ppl who are worst off den me muz rmb this... FAMILY? i have non ba... its complicated... its... haix~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Will you ever notice me...

Sunday, April 02, 2006
4:00:00 PM

M I so weak? do i really get hurt so easy, haix, a broken heart or a injuried heart really get injuried real easy, on the stages of healin, anything will make it bleed again... I feel my body gettin weaker each day... i don slp as late nor do i wake up late... in fact, i slp for lesser hrs.

I m distancin myself from makin frenz, even when my frenz wan intro their frenz to me. I rejected tt offer...

To think tt i say my mami was nice, omg, she aint, ediotic sia... my life is so happenin n its gettin worst n worst each day n i m thinin, it is goin out of hand soon, i m going to collaspe soon, real soon...

Today even have ppl spams my frenzster de pic... haix, so sad, so down. I wan to be loved, feel love, miss the warmth... but did i ever felt tt warm? Not tt i rmb le.. felt like a long time ago...

Even my little brother is so fuck up. Complain to mami ask em load, nvm, i load pokemon let him play, den to think he lost, he start cryin n blame me, something i damn feel that he is my sister instead.. so gal, cry simi la... my family juz sux la, i donno them,i don have any family members!!!

lEiMoNx really like to bully n threatened me.. hmm who is dnrudy sia... why he doing tt? Even rehab-?? why sia... m i so hateful? i really sux? my heart real shattered and broken le... tt even faerie are helpless... why do they hate me.. feel so touch, ppl standin up for me.. feel abit of glad and warmth.

After so long, i finally got thru to a person.. ^^ was feelin so down, i try to hide, scram thru but den, think he still notice tt i m weird... i was always on the verge of crying. It make me feel so much beta.. thanx~ I make be fallin for you le...

Will you ever notice me...

Saturday, April 01, 2006
1:41:00 PM

wow, so tired, last night slp so late but damn, i m so happy, cuz someone pei me all the way, though i was tired yet may fall aslp anything but i m so happy ^^.

I know of some other thingy which i m curious bout n always want to know n some hidden secret... woo, so exciting sia, i find out tt this conflict make me distance lotsa but make me more closer to lotsa too...

today mornin almost cant wakey was so tired, dream also so draggy, so sweet, don really wan wake up...

Wow, today play a game yet IQ game or quiz.. lol... http://weikiat.ikueb.com/thewicked/ can give it a try wor.... can be damn lame as well... good luck~

Frenz are concern, they ask me wat happen.this may let me know wat ppl really are, who are my real frenz at least tt wat i hope.

Till today den i know tt he has read my blog before, i donno i should be angry? sad? or happy? haiz... m i shuttin myself out again? my life too drama le ba. haix, is thingy gettin more n more out of hand, more n more ppl spreadin bad thingy bout me, i keep actin as i don care but its hurtin me, more n more, wonder is owniee still angry with me, i don dare ask myself for an answer le. but i will still respect his decision. Till he remove it... but i also tryin my best to juz forget all bout it le, keep it as a sweet memories, its will hurt me lesser... =~(

today i was damn piss off. my name is given to me by my parent not for ppl to play ard... damn fuck up, makin me revengin mind more n more revengeful... remove my xs ba... tt tissues paper.I m damn sad n hurt... but its ok... i wonder who is the real abuser... ABUSER SIA... =~(

Will you ever notice me...