*[[ Angel full of Lღve]]*

~~Tuesday, August 29, 2006~~

2:12:00 PM

Parents are gettin on my nerves at time, they say n do different thingy, sometime i jux so lost about wat to do, they hurt me so deeply, i jux donno how to explain, i will like to detail out so as not to hurt anyone else, but it make me tots at time, M I THEIR REAL CHILD. its bad to harbour such a tots, but i don have a choice.
I have been the worst child ard, but i tolerate, i cant give in all the time, it make me feel so weak, they ar eunreasonable, though i know they meant well, aint there any other way to show it? why cant they admit tt they are wrong, even so, don need to go thru usin such method. pls spare a tots for me...

Haix, i notice tt Sparin a tots for other are as impt as sparin a tots for urself, why get urself hurt n involve, avoid if u can, tolerate, let a step, but don use all, don always use it. it take two hands to clap, but don be such a push over, or u will be a target forever, don be so naive n nice, as alot of bad guys are out there, huntin, huntin innocent, stupid prey.......

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, August 25, 2006~~

7:59:00 PM

^^ my sweet little bodyguard (my protector) (*';'*)

Haix, got a sad sad news, so scary and uncertain, last last tue, my 'it' almost have its net cut off. but den again, 'it' net may be cut off anyday, 'it' say tt day was its last day but den, the next day out of surprise, 'it' net still can be used. Was kinda glad, it make me sad to think tt i m havin lesser time with 'it' but 'it' so sweet. 'it' keep assure me n make me feel so happy, n try to make me forget n be happy ^^

that my lovely guild ^^ my deputy(super lovely assistant) & me

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, August 09, 2006~~

9:13:00 PM

Specially dedicate it to someone special ^^

"Aiks, help~" shoutin for help from deep inside my heart (again) [its haven so long since i last need this help]
I cant slp, soooo xin ku =~( my heart have a part of its missing, i miss 'it' but i will have to get used to it. Toss n turn, tryin my best to stay focus n try to slp n keep my brain empty!!! but its seem to fail.
I m so on the verge of breakin down, i recieve a news, though its nth big, but its damn unbearable for me, i believe for 'it' too. Always havin 'it' by my side every single sec of my day, n havin such sweet n lovely night, tt i forgotten tt i once keep havin slpless night.
Human can be so brittle, haha, a small chances also so hard to adapt meh? or izzi jux tt u lazy don wan to get used to it. But its going to be forever, u need to conpromise too de. cant be selfish, if u don wan other to be.
Tears are uncontrollable<---------------very very true. T.T sobbing softly in my room, tryin to accept tt horrible fact, it too my quite awhile, ok la, truthfully, took me very long. My heart is longin for 'it' n is missing 'it' damn badly, suddenly the clock jux seem to stop. time pass so slowly. everything seem kinda meaningless...... There is such a mix of emotion n tots, tt i cant breath nor explain them clearly anymore. i jux lost interest n the only think i wan n have in mind is 'it'. I think i take thingy too for granted. i know 'it' was affected by tt news too, 'it' is so brave n understandin, keep tryin to cheer me up, i hopin 'it' tell me too, but i wont force 'it'. Finally at ard5am, i finally fall aslp =~ but i wake up at 9plus due to a nightmare. i dreamt, 'it' left me forever, for something else. my heart was totally shattered den E/> I cant stop my tear from rollin down even when my eyes are close. (;_;) i lock myself up, i give 'it' a msg after thinkin for a very long time, i receive assurance, was feelin kinda happy and light-hearted, but my heart still hurt. Think tonight, i need help of those relax pills liao =(

Will you ever notice me...