*[[ Angel full of Lღve]]*

~~Sunday, October 08, 2006~~

8:39:00 PM

I grab at stars,
sweeping my hand across the heavens,
hanging onto sharp chunks of hope
that cut my palm.
carefully, eagerly I pry open
my fingers
and find I have captured
only silvers of darkness.

Hai, feelin so rather empty, n green with envy, but wat for, been kinda moody, but why do i even care. Nah, maybe i do, maybe i don. but how does it matter anyway?

Feelin so insecure..... jux hopin for an answer, is it so hard? well, i doubt so, its jux a matter of tellin of not. It also all depend on how i look at it too. So wat if they aint really mine?
But seriously is there any answer of can "B+B=O" ? Maybe yes. maybe no.... even a doc may not know.

recently, i heard tt one of my frenx is gettin married, wow so fast... know for a few months only..... (loves & fates) well wish them all the best i guess.... sweet lucky couple... haha

but i also heard tt, my from got scammed by his so-call frenx. well, tt gal got close to him n he started to trust her, well, end up, she scam them out of their money n stuffs.... Even her bf donno her whereabout, well maybe they are in it tgt. maybe not. noone know. But lettin her bf know, we got nth to lost. either we lost those item but it may also help us find tt person.....

P.S. 'it' got a job, well we still do chat, but it seem like 'it' is gettin busy n tired due to work. I cant be selfish, but i m kinda feelin neglected. No offend or anything or any meanin. jus wanana say how i feel. Don even know wat our relation. its so unclear. maybe an answer to assure me will be nice. so i feel more secure?

My mami gettin more n more crap up, so unreasonable, but donno wan stat why liao, so bth liao... haix, donno whether she is jux plan bias, or maybe, i jux aint her child to start with. I don even have privacy, also like to threatened me, everything also my fault, got help also say nv help... haix..... She jux like to shout n scream at me ba.... rush me, so fan, make me feel more moody... cant even let me blog... in peace.................

while my little bro, like to add fire n fuel, like to disturb.... nth to say.... school startin soon also.....

i wan hide in my small small world liao la.... frenx? are they even there, well, they aint.... maybe, i should go out more, but with who? noone is ard to go out with me.... stayin at home, is makin me breakin down soon~~~

haix, don wan talk bout it le........................... mami wan snatch comp, if not she wan off main switch or even blame me for other stuffs le........

Will you ever notice me...