~~Friday, March 30, 2007~~

6:09:00 PM

Haiz, today i m even more sick.. den during work, donno is i sotong or cuz i sick, i got scalded by hot water... den nvm, i even accidentally cut my hand... bo wei gong sia... I got more n more seriously ill... *cough cough* argh, practically wan die le la...

Today XiaoP is posted to the bar station again... today she teach one of her senior [(cystial-san) she is in green colour shirt, think is managerial post de gua] how to do bar... she even say wan to let her stay in bar for two whole week n teach everyone (include all other seniors n managers). wow, wat a big task for her... this mean that they think highly of her, but why nv promote her? moreover she only learn bar for 2(half) day. wow, she really did a good job, even i think, she should give herself a pat on the back.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, March 29, 2007~~

7:01:00 PM

*cough cough* *snif* haha, i really seriously very sick le... lucky today its my off day.. was sittin down chattin with XiaoP, den i heard that one of her colleague was force to resign. haha, nvm, ppl de prob, let don care...

Today, i feel like sourish dispite being sick... maybe i m jealous ba, but over bluey? cant it... its over wat.. haiz, i m still so not confident at all. well, i m very very upset, but its ok, it will all be in my heart... *zip* ok, let pretend nth happen, but why m i still so sourish...

Haiz, wat does bluey ex has over me? why do i care? why does i feel so sourish? though i don really wish bluey will help her. but, as a frenz, maybe she really does.. but, its hurt me. i scare bluey is gettin made used of. i don wish for bluey to fall back into the big black hole... but no matter wat bluey decision is, i will support i guess.. i will indirectly help her den.. but after checkin, thingy aint that serious... i don wan to comment, its the best... let it be gua...

all the best to the gal. i hope i can find wat the truth before the time is up eh... but sg wont anyhow throw ppl in jail, n that type of small thingy, the most ehy sue u till bankrupt but nv jail, hope that will put bluey heart at peace, i wont say so much in front of him, lucky still have here to vent abit.. if not i really don wan talk at all.. i serious hope bluey don care nor help. i got a bad feelin bout it... bout this.. why she call bluey only when in trouble? when she got so many frenz n ppl too. why don find the guy she love so much? m i askin too much? m i too possesive?? i cant help it? i don wan act to be generous, but i don wan to hurt bluey feelin, i know i run, but wat to do? its his choice, respect it. help him, support him, that wat i can do, its normal to feel abit jealous... at least its show that u care rite? but feelin so sourish when ur sick is suck a torture... sometime i wish to juz leave n don talk to bluey anymore... its hurt to see him sad. can really tell, he loves his ex eh... i know my tone sound angry at time.. but i aint... i m juz plain weak in relationship prob. somemore now i m even more weak cuz i m sick... i cant think...

wat will he do? i wonder, i mind yet i cant say n wont say. I TOTALLY MIND, N I MIND IT ALOT!!! (T_T) haiz... i know he like kajiao me to make me luff, dispite watever, he always try his best, always there, i cant be so selfish can i? its aint rite, this aint wat he wan.. i cant be controllin ppl.. that way, everything wont work anymore... why do i have so many question mark? why m i always so noisy n askin so much qn? its ok, i shall concentrate more on work, work hard, get a promotion, more money, everything solve. good...

"Your dreams and ambitions are much important for you and you can do everything to fulfill your dreams.
Love is much valuable in your life but you always search for someone perfect. You hardly trust someone.
Your friends are really important for you but normally you hide a lot from them.
You are a deep thinker you always study the negative view as well as positive.
You can lead a happy life with a person for whom you care a lot these days." <---- i wonder is it true bout me... maybe gua...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, March 28, 2007~~

8:16:00 PM

*Snif snif* gona fall sick soon le la now i m Pre-SiCk... haha... beta don overwork myself....

Haha, i envy XiaoP more n more each day... she seem to have lotsa fun, Haiz.. today she do bar again.. den those kitchen staff talk to her... even the outside the converter bell de chef also... wow, she learn so many item, next time can open her own shop le la(her supervivor say de) she today even stay back FOC to help out her senior, cuz the other gal really cmi... hahaha... do too slow... den leave this here n there... den the senior say, she beta leave ba, cuz her senior gettin too dependent on her. Haha, so cute, the senior praise her. n tell her boss that she love bar alot.. haha.. donno should gratz her or say good luck to her.. haha... But one more funny things is that, ppl all keep think that she is part-timer... How i wish, i also can find a job that i love, juz like XiaoP.

Her senior even say that, if very free, wan teach her how to make sushi. hope she fast fast learn all, den can make give me eat... hehe... maybe i can even learn all the receipt from her... *grin*

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, March 27, 2007~~

9:01:00 PM

till now, my throat still hurt alittle, but den again... i donno why i keep sneeze (after i reach home)... today keep accidentally scald my hand, due to the hot water n hot tea...

Wow, i so happy for XiaoP lor, actually i really very envy her too... although today is her second day working, but today is the offical openin day to the public( her workplace la) haha, mean she first batch of staffs... Somemore today, she was posted to bar to have bar trainin... wow, only one day, go learn bar le... den heard that her senior, praise her for being smart.

bluey maybe going have a interview soon, in sg, n that place, is a work where i used to work near, so i know the area like the back of my hand....

ok, i beta sign off early n slp, real tired, somemore tml i need work mornin shift... hehe...

Will you ever notice me...

9:40:00 AM

I have a great day ytd n the day before... nv feel so nice before... all the best for me today ye....

But i got scolded for phone bills again.. haha.. overseas call eh... hmm, quite true la... but i don use my hse phone except for that only... cuz i really hardly call out... But he is different i guess, beta dial less, i scare later my dad call him up n scold... i will feel even worst...

my throat don really feel well.. T.T wonder how come i can slp more, yet i wakey early...

so many thing to keep in heart, ok den, here i sign off le.. go watch abit of cartoon first....

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, March 24, 2007~~

5:47:00 PM

Finally, i hit the pit fall of my point... I dinno that its will be so fast... well, its nth actually, juz that i m so unplease bout it... i know i disturb my bluey with my nonsense again... i seem to be juz a crybaby... my heart is in a mess... I felt like my mum's puppet... like a small little pet in a caged..

Stop. i wish to put a stop to everything.... juz now when ppl call, my mami juz give it to me, force me to pick it up... why muz she everything use force de? but den again.. wat ppl call sure is find me? i don give ppl my hse number anymore le.. i also nv use hse phone le la... Why everytime also like that. Den my bastard brother is behind there 'fan' me...

Bluey, stop being so nice to me... i donno la... i feel so bad towards u. ur so sweet... too sweet infact... but thankful that ur so sweet. my answer is slowly surfacin... always there to let me complain regardless of wat happen n supportin me silently, but when i m at fault, u will scold too rite?? i don like when ppl too let me win, i need ppl to give me a wake up call too de. Lettin that person win n not lettin her wat rite n wrong, is indirectly harmin her in long run... Be frank n truthful.

How to even think with my brother behind keep fan n make noise n irritate me... how to blog, how to think??? argh, i m piss off enuff.. my heart real aching now... its actually bleedin, but why?? wat really happen?? juz now i receive bluey de call, felt so happy, lightened abit, yet kinda surprise, kinda worried bout him.. he is juz too far... too darn far, but den again, its quite near too rite? Haiz, say far not far, say near not near... Rite now, i juz a big warm hugz... feelin so cold n lonely now... its so empty inside my blinkin pink heart... maybe its will turn black one day... (T.T) i so wanted to cry rite now... burst into tears at any moments... well, i wish t0 go out awhile too... its so stuffy at home... i cant take it... i wanna run away from this terrible place...

Why do i suddenly hope, that i aint born in this house? why do i suddenly hope that, my dna don mix? why don we really take a dna test?? anyway, our blood type are diff aint we?? its really different!!! why this topic pop into my brain again.... HELP ME PLS SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *999*

I think i m mad, this few days i m going crazy n weird. today i slp for 12hr(ard there more or less by abit) I keep wantin ppl's attention... i know i m an attention seeker... but its juz cuz i m scare of being lonely... I dislike the feelin of being alone... i wanted bluey attention, but i understand he need to work, well he is nice enuff to spend some time with me.. but i think i m greedy, cuz i wan more... but his work makin him super tired too... *wakey hachiko* its rainin, so cold, the coldness even reach the bottom of my heart... well, watch tv ba, can distract me for awhile.................

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, March 22, 2007~~

6:08:00 PM

After such a long 'vacation' din really have a vacation, juz a short break cuz this few days nv work.. but i suddenly feel so shag la.. been a total busy week of stress sch, den continue by workin n workin.. n after tml onward, i will start my workin life.. haiz.... so sad... I wan a bf la... hahaha, well, cuz, its feel so empty inside me, so lonely, true that i have frenz, but its different... ignore me, think i m back to my crazy self.. hehe...

Haiz, my brother has yet again, trigger the button of his chinese teacher i think, partly cuz the teacher don like him (bias teacher, buts its my brother's fault, who ask him ar, the mouth ar, donno when to shut de, always make ppl hate n angry de, to me, if he don change, one day, he will be beaten to death on the streets...) But the teacher complain, den my parents aint happy, so end up, there are shoutin ard the hse again... haiz, poor me... have to tahan all this nonsense when i m innocent, n they like to drag me in as well, ming ku ar~!!!

Den again, i wonder if XiaoP is able to cope.... haha, she sure can de la.. always is she worry for others, other don need worry for her de...

Ytd my old frenz, msn me, den we did talk abit, we stay so near, yet i felt we are so far.. maybe we have different dream, life is different too, but make the best out of it, n she say, let go out someday, chill out, have some fun, well, i do miss her... we used to be so close, wonder will be ever be the same again... But den again... later 'tigerX' is back to haunt my life.. but eh... donno la, maybe cuz i soft-hearted, not fierce enuff to really tame it huh. oh well, slowly ba, solve one problem at a time...

Weeeee, mami out almost the whole day, ytd chocolate-blueberry cake is so nice... i love chocolate. But i think i din slp well, my neck hurt... I din really slp well this few days, keep havin nightmare lately... nightmare cause by 'tigerX'

ytd talk to bluey le.. haha, nth can hide from his sharp dog eyes or is it nose ar... haha, cat den is eyes rite? or is it owl?? nah, who really care. cuz i only care bout that dog... he sure can sniff everything out no matter wat i hide, he know wat i m think, totally so cool sia... n he even read me like a white sheet of paper *swt* i felt so weak... but its ok... its hard to find a dog who understand me so well.. i will love n sayang the dog n wont let it starve de, but den again, its has a mind of his own, cfm wont let me control he wan eat wat or watever de... den i also lazy cook for him, why can he be an tamagochi ma!! den i press press button can le, den somemore so guai, oh ya, why i nv think of it, i shall find a tamagochi dog. (^3^) den can name it bluey too, but den again, hachiko will be nice too *woof woof*

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, March 21, 2007~~

7:23:00 PM

Today is 21st of march... Wow my mami bdae wor... Wow, she is so old liao, times do pass by quite fast without anyone really noticing... n den 49 years have pass for her liao... But well, anyway today is kinda her big day, so she is queen for a day.. beta give her wat she wan n let her do wat she wan huh.. don u agree, and she wan the comp, so i beta faster blog n den give it to her.. haha

Today my dadi buy a cake home, wonder wat type of cake is it n how it look like... Hope there is flower on the cake, cuz i din see that my dadi got buy flower for mami, n i do know, mami wan to receive flower from dadi de...

Talkin bout flower, its link me to think bout certain stuffs... seriously, which gal don like flower? its so nice, so pretty, smell nice too... But to me... though i love flower, maybe i wan them too, but something don feel like... maybe i hope my bf may buy for me. though i don have 1 yet... but... flower used to give me these feelings...
If u get real flower, the flower will witered(wat if the relationship also witered?? {i think too much again})
If u get fake flower, although it wont witered, but its fake (wat if the feelin is fake? though the flower will nv witered or die n stay the same, but its unreal?? {its again thinkin too much on my own, hahaha, but cant help it ma, i even told my mother bout it before ooo})
But its still every gal wish to get flower, aint it?? n that sure do include my mami... hmm, maybe i should call the florist n order now, but wat if they close shop le? i order den put dadi de name... aiks... everything like seem in a rush now.. haha

Personally, i like ring or necklace or bracelet, cuz i can wear it on me, bring it near to my heart, so i wont be lonely, i can feel his presence.. hahaha, although i love soft cuddly soft-toy alot, i cant really bring them along n out with me, so kawaii yet, so ke xi... I love kawaii thing~

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, March 19, 2007~~

5:34:00 PM

'XiaoP' got it sia... she went for a interview today, n she got it, like usual i guess... she good too.... heard that the person who interview her say she is a nice n xiao shun gal.. Haha... anyway gratz to her... she startin work this comin monday though... Haha, but i felt that her pay kinda low... well, wat most impt is being happy... well, at least the pay is more den the one i havin now wor... so envy...

Donno why, i havin a real tired day, maybe i will rest early but i wan to share with u a all, a favour song of mine which i have been findin for quite sometime....

Ju Hua Tai

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, March 18, 2007~~

8:59:00 PM

Wow... today at work can be say was a happy day, everyone seem kinda busy, but den again, everyone seem shen jing bing de!

Today i work morning shift till afternoon, but den they decided to let me go off early (1hr earlier). But today at 10plus or is it 11plus, got four customer sittin at table 31(2guys n 2gals) to think they rmb my name even though i only help them refill their coffees n teas n serve them when they need (its my job) den they compliment me sia.. so happy... one of the guy was like can i ask u a qn? (den he say my name) den he say the service very good... i was so happy, seem as if i m floatin in the air.. keke

But good thing nv last huh... one of my manager seem to have very fast mood swing, n aim at anyone in ur sight... haha. but den again, some unreasonable customer keep complain that no bread (they no eye to see meh? all so busy, kitchen already jam lor, how to toast bread? not crisy, not hot, not soft, u complain, wait awhile la, buy a drink wan eat so much bread, really very 'cat' lor! )

{this is a beautiful song call perhaps love} [maybe its quite true]
Today bluey went back KL lor.. haha din get to see him, kinda sad, but also good, i m not mentally prepared.. let time help me... hehe... let me figure out everything properly first ba... I m so confuse rite now... everything seem to be wrong... n i wan thing to stay the way they are.. cuz i don like changes... i nv really like changes.... But someone once told me, changes is the only thing that is constand in this world

Haiz, my bro lend me in deep shit again, he keep go kajiao my mami when play mahjongg den when she darn to lose money, she come in scold, den aim me as well, i m so innocent.. sob sob....

I m totally so angry with MARS guild now... wtf lor!! do thing till like that... den that brotherhood de lord also... come up with lame excuses ar.... all big bully... wat see wrong, tot my combantant is mars de ppl... her head there write till so big lor!!!!!! BLIND ONE AR!!!! MARS de sky, play till so cheat!!! BAKA!!! frenz also like that... u wan return goodness with evil huh!!! U gooD!!!

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, March 17, 2007~~

11:44:00 PM

It seem like its going to be another late night for me.. sure to be very headache. Well, my frenz ask me tml wan go out but i no mood, n anyway i needa work de... I not so free de, i darn busy de lor... den again... i don really wan go out with frenz so much... Thingy been bothering me.. thingy which even bluey, i cant share... so into my heart its goes again... hahaha...

After the 26, i get to go out with 'it' wor... hahahaha.... well, tomorrow bluey going back KL le... he sure is busy... this few days, mami make curry puff oooo....

Haiz, my bro sure know how to piss me off... sian.... i felt so irritated, since i m already so fan.... They added on, sure trigger my mood very fast de...

Tomorrow still need to work at 10am till 4pm sia... But don feel like go home after work, maybe i shall go to the library n sit there.. den monday also... so busy... Haiz... There are something which i cant even say here... haiz... i needa plenty of time alone.. plenty of time to think n question myself n to test n den i can judge.... Guess not only all this.... I will also need to prove n maybe more time, time will tell de....

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, March 16, 2007~~

6:40:00 PM

Today exam liao wor, meanin i can put down my bag of stress, hehe, feel so light, so delighted... today, we are suppose to go out, but so many thingy crop up, end up, we cancel the outing, den we only went for a quick lunch den everyone go home, so wet blanket.

Wow but den afterall, today as a bad day either, so many small happening which cheer up my dull day~ But i don wan to name it all liao....

Monday i m going for a job interview... more choices are good, view le den say, hahaha....

Think that my brain is in a mess now huh... wow, juz now bluey call, den he say he on long travel... den i was inform, he is comin to lion city, at first i tot he was jokin bout it... well... i suddenly feel so lost... yet i don wan to disclose myself... let juz say i m distracted.. Haha... i donno wat i really wan, i wanted to see him, kinda miss him.. yet feel so unreal, but den again, i m scare. scare of wat may happen, scare of the changes that may happen if.... There are so many unknown fact, ok, i m makin myself stress again when it is nth to worried bout... hahahaha... cool down will u young lady.

That stupid daniel, always call us 'KIDS' i not that small anymore lor!!! so tao yan de!!!! SOmemore say he always see me that look, say i not cheerful, but i m always luffin away ar... aint i? i m blur sia... haiz... now is a startin of another holiday, june den will start sch again le... den again, life get on din it, time don stop for anyone did it??

though today is my exam, i will only get the result few month later, hope i pass it with abit of colour eh... everyone ask me have trust, but this lecture is boring, so is the lesson, we are practically wastin our time there only....

OK don wan talk so much le, i m tired.... n sleepy, think exam drain me out of the brain juice... Wow, 'it' call me...

P.S, to bluey, ty for being there, donno wat power u have la, but u always able to smoothe my mess tots n let me juz stop thinkin for a min. well that is enuff le... aligato! i not going to think of wat gona happen le, will handle it when i come... gambateh~

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, March 15, 2007~~

6:01:00 PM

Tomorrow is my exam lor, so stress, this few days, i got so much to say, yet everytime i got time to blog, i forget wat i wan to post up... Haiz, all the irritant in life, is keepin me so distracted...

I donno wat happen, but this time round, i cant concentrate in the lecture at all. Watever teacher say, no matter how attentive i m, i cant seem to get wat she say into my brain at all.. its so depressing... It make me feel so stress up, so fear that i may fail this module....

Today my cousin, kenneth went to NS(national service).

I think i m really brain stuck le, i know that bluey is there to help me, he ask me to relax, but i cant relax at all, i cant help it... i know i m part of the roots to my own stress... But who wont be stress when watever teacher say cant get to ur brain, n when u are suppose to finish the module in a week, n how to score distinction? or maybe even pass?

But den again, when bluey is there, i kinda forget the stress for a sec, but den its come back, bluey is nice la, but he is mean too, always bully me de T.T sei bluey so bad de!!! make sure i slap him the next time. >=(

Recently, i cant seem to slp well at night, keep wakey in the middle of the night, hope to tune back abit, n its startin to feel so cold... I wan a hugz....

Haiz, nvm, think i blog tml, gtg, cuz mami wan to use the comp le n keep nagging, T.T cant even have abit of privacy n time to blog... with all the disturbance, i keep forget wat i wan to say......

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, March 13, 2007~~

9:09:00 PM

Below is some meaningful words by a gal which i hope to share with everyone...

The other side of suffering
ikeuchi aya

Everyone feels pain
But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive.
Even with sports, studying or other ordeals.
With life, it's like that for everyone.
If we can beat the pain, on the other side,
a rainbow of happiness awaits us.
That will definitely become a treasure
Let believe in that

step by step
ikeuchi aya

When my existence seens to disappear
I will look for the place where i can be the best I can
From now on, I'll delibrate slowly
I won't be impatient
I won't be greedy.
I won't give up.
Because everyone takes things step by step.

Will you ever notice me...

8:23:00 PM

Today only the second day of the school n i m feelin super stressful already. Wat sofi( i think that how my teacher's name is spell) say cant get into my brain... my brain is so stuck, so blank! I cant concentrate at all, moreover this module is call 'the enterpreneurial team' so boring the topic!! OMG!!! high chances that i wont pass liao la!! T.T I don wan to fail wor!!!

Today lunch, we went with the teacher to eat at pastamania, wow, i din know near my sch for such place, den saw alot of other shops too. hehe...

Today the traffic is really super heavy sia. Haiz, den today lesson time, i was so headache, den i think half-way thru, i knock out... cuz my mind juz go blank n black. Den donno why suddenly, i cant really breath, my lung feel so tight. Den to keep myself away, i took my hp out n listen to song, haha, end up, low batt, so i stop... I muz start saving up lor, den ask for my mami permission.. gambateh^^

"What's wrong with falling down? You can always stand up again.
If you look up the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching linitlessly and smiles at me...
I'm alive. I'm alive."
above n below are both phrase which i coated from the show i have been chasin after.
"People shouldn't dwell on the past.
It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now."

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, March 11, 2007~~

5:47:00 PM

"Even though i have been hurt before by those heartless glances... This also helped me understand that around me, there still exists some gentle glances. Therefore i definitely wont run away. That's what i'll do. Definitely, always." This is also taken from the show.. touchin n meaningful aint it, hope it can brighten n enlighten u all too n well, that include me ^^ dont it.

Today is the first day of school. Yeah, finally after so long, we start sch again lor, i did miss everyone wor... Been so long since i last take public transport so early in the mornin, wow so many ppl waitin for bus n train n everything, even on the road, its heavy traffic. Is it so crowded that i almost scare i cant get to sch in time...

Well, its started like any other plain day. But i went for breakfast with my mami n my little bro, we ate noodles, den i went to take bus 55, hehe, lucky got 2 bus, if not i wonder how i m going to squeeze in, so many ppl. Den when i reach the mrt train, the same problem occurs, but i did get in, its so squeezey, den when i finally reach raffle place mrt station, it is ren shan ren hai. human traffic jam, haha, lucky all three escalator is going up... even walkin its so crowded, needless to say on the road of the central workin district.

Worst, they even change my classroom, almost cant find it, as i m still early, ok the earliest, noone else (from my class) is ard. so lonely... Den when i saw my this term stack of note ( die le, so many words, so chim, so boring) when the lecturer come, we are shock, cuz she look so fierce n strict, but later on, we found out, she can be quite fun, but the lesson really is boring, n i don understand wat is she tryin to say....

Mornin callin someone is really a tiring job, so hard to wake my frenz. haha... he even try report sick... haha... den hmmm, nvm, i keep all this funny cute detail to myself, don wan share with u, keke... so funny.

Haiz, i wan get my own mp3 player le la... tired of recordin, cuz my hp batt will run dry fast, den i cant seem to get the radio rite when i m on the mrt cuz we are underground, den the interferrance very irritatin, cant even listen to the song i like peaceful... Den even if on hp, ignorin the fact bout the batt, if a sms come in, the song get interrupted too, den again, its aint as clear as a mp3. Mami, buy for me hao ma~ pretty pls... (haiz, but i know she wont) haha, well, havin a hope is beta den havin nth at all... even if dream, also nvm, cuz at least, i have a dream.

I think this week will be a stress n busy week, hardly got time to play the comp, cuz its in my parents room den when i home, i cant use it... Sob sob, maybe even wan blog also have prob le. Pray for a lappy..... hahaha....

But this yr, my bdae will be a super special date wor... 070707 nice date rite... hehe..

Will you ever notice me...

2:50:00 PM

喜欢你
beyond 黄家驹

细雨带风湿透黄昏的街道
抹去雨水双眼无故地仰望
望向孤单的晚灯是那伤感的记忆

再次泛起心里无数的思念
以往片刻欢笑仍挂在脸上
愿你此刻可会知是我衷心的说声

喜欢你那双眼动人笑声更迷人
愿再可轻抚你那可爱面容
挽手说梦话像昨天你共我

满带理想的我曾经多冲动
屡怨与她相爱难有自由
愿你此刻可会知是我衷心的说声

每晚夜里自我独行随处荡多冰冷
已往为了自我挣扎
从不知她的痛苦

she be do she be do
she be do
oh my love my darling
i hunger for your touch

喜欢你
(朋子):想要靠得这么近现在不可以
(千佳):我们的关系只比第一次见面(ha ji me ma shi te)多一点
(爱纱):甜言蜜语慢慢说太快听不懂
(麻衣):请温柔一些(ya sa shi ku shi te ne)好好的对我
(合唱):喜欢你(su ki da yo)要天天说
别忘记(wa su re na i de)随时想念我
不能说你没空每天要陪我喜欢你(su ki da yo)说了就要做
别忘记(wa su re na i de)不能忘记我现在开始加油
要你做我的第一(i chi ban da yo)
a-aha-aha ya ya ya ya a-aha-aha喜欢你(su ki da yo)
da-la-la-la la-la-la de-li-li da-la-la
let's go 一起走吧(i ki ma shou)
da-la-la-la la-la-la de-li-li da-la-la
喂!喂!(mo shi mo shi)打电话给我等你喔
(朋子):陪我走到家门口再见(sa yo na ra yo)
(爱纱):say good-bye的心情有一点feeling blue
(千佳):甜言蜜语慢慢说让你听得懂
(麻衣):love me tender好好的对我

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, March 09, 2007~~

8:09:00 PM

"妈妈看了U频道六点的韩剧之后就说为何我爸从来没买过花给他" My mami can be so funny at times, hehe...

Haiz, i totally cant slp at all last night. I know something happen to my 'bluey' but so hard to really care for him la. Omg, its sure hurt him darn deeply, i donno how to console him. He sure love that gal darn deeply. Juz by hearing him crying, i felt so heartpain. But i was also kinda angry.... Donno how to explain, den my anger n emotion took the beta of me, i juz scold him, n eventually hang up on him. He acting like a little boy, kinda coward, he is runnin away n not facin it. I totally donno how to help him, if he not helpin himself much. Feel so heartpain n sad.

Den ard 4plus 5, i suddenly feel my throat burnin. Feel so alone, thinkin back, i know i m kinda mean to my 'bluey' haha, aiks... always too chong dong.

Waaa!! afternoon, i was sittin in front of my comp, den suddenly i heard an explosion, its shout louder n fiercer den a gun shot, its don sound like a gun shot, in fact, its sound like a bomb explosion, scare the HELL out of me sia, den when i look out of the window, i saw alot of ppl doing the same thing.

Why do i have a bad feelin bout today... well, nvm, the day still too early to really judge.. Oooo, today bear bear marry with pit, but i refuse to go, so wu liao... bored n tired liao... ooo ya, today one of my frenz suddenly msn me n tell me he so happy, swt sia.... super cartoon lor, tell me u happy for wat? the most i say le gratz lor, good for u lor, wat u wan me to say sia? weirdo sia.... Happy u found job so? startin work so? i donno wat u expect sia. weirdo...

Haiz, endin of day liao, yet this thingy muz happen... prove that my feelin is not wrong, at first tot its cuz i nv slp last night, that why i steam, but i guess not. Haiz, such long de incident, do u all need to pull it out? n hurt me once again?? its aint me ok!! its him n u, why end up shiftin all the blame to me n call me names? I treat u all as frenz, tell u the truth, u choose to hide, fine, go ahead!!! really is GOU YAO LI DONG BIN!!!! BU ZHI HAO REN XIN!!! Haiz, wat to do, its ok, i will get my revenge on all this childish jerk. I hate to be bully. SOmemore try bully me when i m more down, really son-of-the-bitch, don dare fight me face to face huh, stab me from behind when i m less aware n uneq. Its fine, since i can move on the last time, i can do it once again, frenz come n go, keep those loyal n trust n good, n ignore the rest, n not everyone is a frenz. U choose to avoid, choose to run, choose to believe wat is throw at u den that fact, choose to shift the blame to others so u feel beta, choose me as the victim, ok fine, but this show how coward you are. I know u n can read u as if u are transparents n u know it too. i know u juz too darn well, ur character n everything, n now u wan offically declare war? ok bring it on.....

"IF I WERE A FLOWER. THEN NOW I"D BE A BUD. I SHALL TREASURE THE BEGINING OF MY YOUTH WITHOUT REGRETS." I took it from a new show which i m in love with, its so sad n touchin n meaningful... haiz, maybe u all should watch it, teach u to treasure.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, March 05, 2007~~

7:43:00 PM

"虽然我们不能帮你做一些什麼﹐可是你也不要一個人扛所有的事情嘛。我們一直都在﹐我們會永遠的支持你。要不然朋友是用來做什麼的﹐又是為了什麼而存在的呢?" <---meaningful phrase hor, hehe, but its a great encouragment for alot of ppl i believe. ;) Ok, enuff of those mushy words, now back to my main point of the day, but why i say that i cuz one of my frenz kinda got hurt by his 'so-call' frenz n whom is also my 'ex-frenz' ( cuz he is now no longer my frenz [he suggest it himself de]) I pity my that frenz, he is so loyal n sincerely being 'ef' de frenz, so trust 'ef' yet 'ef' like that treat him, Haiz, return good with bad stuffs ma... More n more disappointed in my 'ef' le... Not only a liar, but such a jerk? OmG!!! But i seriously don think i can forgive 'ef' watever he do is pissin me more off. I m slowly movin on, but now i stay cuz of wat happen to my frenz.

My 'ef' is jux too sensative la, well partly cuz 'ef' that me n 'it'.. hmm forget it, all past le, but den again, 'it' don like 'ef' also, haiz... now i partly understand, although this is not the outcome that i wan. But sometime i feel 'ef' is abit childish, he is too negative le... Haiz... alot of thing, don need to say out... But now there are something which i don think i wan kept n think, waste my time only.

Why should i forgive someone who act so rashly or act till so childish n so flirt n such a liar, well, i donno la... so many thingys is going thru my mind, i cant settle them do to piece them into words. He sure can change fast, once see another target, go for its, well, its good that he don bother me, but i suddenly feel so lucky, i din choose him, cuz he sure jump very fast, pity that gal, last time still say wont fall for any gal, den fall for me, now for another one... CMI.. haha, but den again, why his msn, like... well, hope he not tryin to step two boat, or try anything funny. wan new n wan try date the old one... despo are like that, so forgive them, keke, but den again, why i care ar?? hmmm, haha, maybe cuz i wan be the hero to save other gals~ wakakaka, jk la.

Ppl, when u are the one who chase away ur own frenz, pls don ask why no frenz or noone true, pls stop ur pace n think of why this happen, there is always a reason for everything, jux that ppl choose to stay silent.

Weee, lucky i m still ok, still wel-liked, still have alot of frenz n i also got some very nice n close one wor ^^ To me, i believe guys n gals, there is purely good frenz de ^^ don complicate thingy when they are simple la. I LIKE ALL MY FRENZ~ 友谊万岁!!!

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, March 04, 2007~~

4:22:00 PM

Well, as for that incident which happen that day, the knot in my heart(the melted memories) is untie. There is no more question mark. Its very clear, distance may not be a problem, but it may be a big problem. So wat if he like me, or i like him, but we may alsmot nv be together, cux its too far... He tell me, so wat if he care, he cant do anything for me, he cant be there immediately for me, which is very true, but nevertheless, we two still good frenx now. Its beta if everything is say clearly, as now i feel my heart lighten, no more burden le (*^_^*)

But it lead me to think of other thingys, but den, i beta don think first, let time see n slowly ba, why worried so much, everything will piece out nicely in the end de! hehe, well, guess wat my frenx say is correct, " u got such a small brain yet u wan to stuffs so many thing inside. cfm will burst de. Even if u got a big brain, also not enuff for ur usage, silly"

That day when i was watchin a show, i rmb someone from that show say 1 phrase, which i think, its really very true. "真相往往只有一个, 而事实, 也往往都被隐瞒"

wow, i now den jux come to know that today is "Happy 15th Night (Chinese V'day)"

So many year has past n i dono that today is such a special day, hahaha, aint i baka? =X

OOo ya, forget to add in, recently i found or heard something i shouldn't know. but abit non of my biz but also abit my biz, hope that bastart really have fallen for someone else, i will bless them la, but he is a liar! darn bit liar! so fast like someone else? Or did he chase two gal at the same time, or he tryin to step two boat! OmG, how i wish to know the whole truth, but den, wat for? I don even wan care for him, as he is no longer my frenx liao, wakakaka. Why find trouble for myself ^^ m happy for wat i m now, n how i m now, me will treasure it de (*^_^*)\/

Wa suddenly call me up, wan me go work, i not siao de, tonight u free to work ma? siao, today is sunday lor!! moreover hor, today heard that one singer going there to eat, sure very busy de, i m totally shag le.... Where got energy ar... work somemore, i think i really will collapse n shattered wor. wakakaka... hehe, but have no fear, i know someone is there... haha

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, March 02, 2007~~

4:54:00 PM

This few days, i keep anyhow think, haha, think abit too much, everything like mix up lor. Till i very confuse, cannot concentrate nor figure out wat i really wan. Or wat is really in my mind, cant even solve my on hand problems. haha, but lately, someone have been kind enuff to be there for me wor, ok not someone its some ppl. Keke. one of them is my new sista(bumbum). N also other special person beside me, whom really been caring for me. i FEEL so *GANDONG*

Keke, thanks for all the encouragment that u all giving me wor. I kept them all in mind but something doing is harder den anything wor. even though i have n keep it in mind, sometime i jux cant do it. I know wat to do de, i know how to do it de, but at the last min, everything seem to stuck. I donno is it that i m surpressin myself, but hor, wat weird is that, how come u actually know how to do it, but u cant do it. knowin too much not good, tend to think too far.. haha, my bad point huh. Think too much, think too far... haha

After this sun, chinese new year will be offically over huh. Hoho n on the 12th of march, i m going start sch... wow, ^hr of lesson per day, den i will be havin my exam on 16th of march. goodluck, beta get myself prepared for the worst huh. Come on, bring it on~~~~ fhooooooooo, i shall pwned it all!!!

Today, ok jux now, someone whom i have given up on, or very long nv contact le, i donno wat has gone wrong la, but his sudden appearance make my heart felt so heavy, so sad, so empty, bringin back all the dumb memories which i long thrown away, how come retrive file is more easy den deleting it?? Why has he suddenly come back? wat really happen during that period, noone know. no answer. I suddenly feel a certain burden(very heavy stone drop onto my heart n i cant breath at all)

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, March 01, 2007~~

5:46:00 PM

Yipeeeeee~ wo si chao high de for this week, hehe. Especially on 27 of feb wor...

I m so in love with the show on channel U at 7pm from monday to friday <<>> Its so kawaii~ so cartoon~~~ (cartoon to me mean cute, keai, funny and so on, well, its a words i like to use la. Wakakaka, super nice, think i madly in love with that show. it make me luff n forget everything within that 1hr of that show. really is a way to relax. Haha

Today, while i m chattin on msn with one of my frenx, he tell me one phrase which i think is very meaningful n quite true also so i ask for his permission if i can copy it n put into my blog... below is the phrase.
"If i have "HRT" to fill, i will choose to make the word "HURT", coz i dun wanna a "HEART" without U..."

Aiyo, i forget wat i wan say, cux mami behind rush me cux she wan use. my bro also same.... swt... haha, think today my whole day watchin show on youtube. Haha, game is so boring, maybe its cux of all the disappointment? all the mistrust. we cant trust anyone... i been like log in n chat with guildmate n frenx n log out. don even wan play, feeling moodless... Haha, today glow ask me, bum come my guild is it? as k me take care of her.. haha.

Hey sometime i still feel that friendless is the best, less trouble, less problem, don need think of anyone, don need care. Why i like to sui bian fan myself ar, think i really nth beta to do... think too much, so free, might as well think of my own future, plan abit, hahaha. aiyo, get some frenx go out n chills, beta still hor. haha... haix, donno la... sot de me.... <3<3<3>

Maybe its wat the pic tell ba, there is a key in everyone de heart but wat if the key is missin or the heart is missin? or wat if both is not there? or wat if both is lock up somewhere? Or, haix, so many possiblity la!!! Don wan think too much n too far, think also got limit de, everything too over not good de.Haha~ I believe this is common knowlegde hor. Wat does that pic tell u? wat is it tryin to imply, why don u all try to figure it out too? hehe..

Yawn, i startin school soon, hope i can score well n all goes well for me ba ^^

Will you ever notice me...