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~~Monday, April 30, 2007~~

10:39:00 AM

Lately, or should i say, after i start workin, i cant really have a peaceful night, either, i need wake up for work, or dreams tend to wake me up. My dreams is always bout work n work, even in my dreams, i m workin, at my workplace, why?? wat come its like this?? swt...

Lately i keep havin a dreams, where the guy will leave. donno why... leave me? but who is that guy? why leave me, den got 1 times, i saw a gal, ok, not really a gal, but a ghost, though its juz a dream.. but it give me a funny feelin, so insecure. i guess i m someone who need a lot of assurance, if not i will always feel very insecure eh.

Ytd took the bus from that bus driver again, den we chat on the bus, the whole journey. haha, kinda funny. i tot i was late, so i run for the bus, den who know, when i board it, den i know he is the driver, den the first thing he say is " xiao jie, zhao an" haha... can tell, he is a malaysian.. he ask me stuffs, n we chat... haha, he even ask, how many times have he fetch me, he still can tell me, 1st time, i seem happy, 2nd time, i seem tired, the last time, i seem in a rush, haha... he total fetch me bout 4 to 5 times le... he still say, no wonder i so late go home, last time fetfh me home, now send me to work, haha... workin life, times so long... we chat bout other too, but i think i can leave out the detail eh...

WHich country do i look like i m from? sound like i m from? my IC is pink colour de wor, why do ppl think i m form japan?? or from malaysia?? do i look like them? sound like them?? why alot of ppl tot i m from overseas eh? confuse... but its interestin aint it? hehe

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, April 28, 2007~~

6:39:00 PM

So tired, finally a off day after so many full day... tired ar... but so fun, today went gai gai with family. so sad, bluey cant come this week, cuz he is not that well, i do miss him, i wont deny, oh yeah~! 'it' got his net back ytd night, haha, donno is good or bad la, cuz i also no time to online or play... everyday work n work, so no life like that... no even have time to go out with frenz, also noone date me la. haha. even if date, also not the right time, i need work, sob sob.. like that how to have fun? i felt like a trap-sotong. haha...

ytd when workin did a few mistake, i m so sotong, m i doin thing slowly? but really work under stress eh, how to fast? i only two hand, they should try it for themself eh.. baka... but i got praise too... i seem to have more n more regular customer, they rmb who m i, even talk to me, haha... got one groups is a bus driver de, ytd second time saw them, that guy, call 'mike chan' talk to me(that time saw him nametag) he ask m i being promoted yet or still a trainee. haha... funny guy. My colleague tot he is my relative or frenz sia, omg!

XiaoP got a big happenin comin sia, though her manager is nicer to her, things are gettin peaceful, but when ever she work, she kinda got paiseh, cuz they all kajiao her, now they even say she n so n so, i think she got a rumor husband le, cuz they say she is so n so de wife. donno is it good or bad, think they both also pai seh, poor XiaoP n (edison-san). Nvm, thingy always end smoothly for her, she is a darn lucky gal, gambateh ba ^^

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, April 21, 2007~~

11:54:00 PM

SO very very tired wor... Zzzzz alot been going thru my mind lately, everything is put in front of me with two road, choices, but each step i took, give me another two more choice, which will end up givin me total diff result in the end.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, April 19, 2007~~

6:53:00 PM

Today was juz a stupid day... at first i got so much to comment n say, den i donno how to put it in words... so i decided not to blog... decide to chill out with some frenz (sec-sch frenz), but who know they put me aeroplane, n therefore. the final straw, i decided to complain abit to my blog...

So sad lor, hardly got off day, yet they suddenly tell me don wan go... sob sob... i also very long nv see them le wor... frenz for so long le... zzz... think i also tio their virus... this is the reason why i always sian bout going out... sometime see ppl also sian la.. alone is the best, stayin at home is the best. cuz i don like to go out alone...

Today XiaoP also very kelian wor... she got 'framed' by her manager, i know that her manager see her as a eye-sore. But i cant imagine, that her manager like that say her... "her manager think that she is makin tea, but she is makin wasabi, cuz last night she is posted to do condiment, yet nv pack the take away wasabi. but den again, why she nv pack, is cuz she last night is partner with ben-san, ben-san incharge of washin, but he everything do half-way run home, left her do alone, yet he wash away all the wasabi le, he nv keep some lor, if wan say lazy, he is even more lazy lor, last night XiaoP do almost everything alone, n noone help her lor. Baka manager, so bias n unfair de lor!!! so FUCK-Up!. Den today her senior support her, tell her that, she muz put all this anger, piss, saddness, as power, n prove to ppl, say that she have worth, need to keep her at the workplace. she also tell XiaoP that, she saw that XiaoP is workin very hard... Sometime is the time, n place.. that why like that... Jiayou bA!! XiaoP left 11 more days, till the end of the battle...

But today something funny happen also. A customer think i luffin at him, but i have to smile cuz i at work, i muz smile at work, don smile, manager will scold de. haha, den he find chance to talk to me, lucky my name tag no name, today i wear the trainee name tag, hehe... den he tell me that, why don i treat him eat. treat him eat, den tml he treat me to movie, den when i reject, he tell me that, see on the share of a movie tml, treat him la, but i still reject him. haha, he really think i kid ar, dumbass.. haha... But its brightened my day ^^

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, April 17, 2007~~

2:31:00 PM

XiaoP is now on a war, a war where she muz win, but even if she lose, there is nth really to lose, except her job. She have bout 15more days only... Her manager is still pickin on her... her n her only, weird lady... haha...

Wa, i lately also very shag, been workin full shift, today den got to off. den this thu, i off work early, other days, i need do till closin, haha... today din get to go out, cuz mami say aunt not free, but den again, i m lazy too... haha... careless little sotong, always forget this n that.. haha... i even cut my fingers. so careless... Jiayou jiayou!!! work harder n be more careful.. zzz, this stupid work need watch, den i don like wear watch de.. i cant always borrow my family member de watch. somemore, not all watch can tahan water, yet my job always get in touch with water.

I guess its true that everyone give diff ppl, diff feelin... certain feelin will feel the same, while some will change...

Haha... today off, nv ask ppl out, its cuz i m tired, n how to ask ppl out last min sia.. haha... den again, why got ppl askin me why nv play wmo, today got 2x exp leh. But they nv think that i m busy workin, where got time play? i don even have time to online sia... haha. game need not play too much... game is for relax de.. i got a new aim in life. i know partly wat i wan. yet i also abit unsure. haha.. dumb me... well, actually do things don need too clear la, happy can liao la..

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, April 15, 2007~~

9:15:00 PM

Ytd bluey pei me for awhile, cuz he got a tight schedule. Although it is only for awhile, its felt so nice, but he keep kajiao n 'bully' me. Sob sob... he bought me, my dinner too. sure a 'sweet' dinner. But he only got little time, cuz he meet his sista for dinner... but i tot they have supper, cuz they ate so long, till 12plus den he reach home. hahaha....

Today bluey went back to KL le... haha, silly bluey, so rush for time, so little time... i know bluey is tired.. today bluey so pig. But i so jealous. rainin, sure very nice to slp de lor. moreover i m very tired, wonder wat this week schedule will be like, when will my off day be...

This two day, as usual, XiaoP got pick on, i also really think that the manager is bias n eyein on her. Findin her a soreeye... i was happy for XiaoP though, that she have her parents' support. She will need lotsa support n encouragement to fight on. she muz win, muz prove to the manager, n be her eyesore, faster get promoted!! GAMBATEH XiaoP!!!

I kinda miss bluey now. haha... he is sayin that we are far, but i don think so... its so near, haha, but i also wish that we have more time. oh well, blog till here ba, i m very tired le.. lazy to type so much. haha.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, April 13, 2007~~

11:45:00 PM

Actually ytd, bluey already reach sg, wow, his bus distance is so long.. so many hoursss.... Zzzz haha... den hor, today he was so busy, got so many meeting.. haha, busy man as usual la... haha

CATASTROPHE ar!! good thing nv seem to last... i heard that her colleague linlin no longer work there le... But something bad strike XiaoP today... something very serious n jialat...

Today her manager, senior manager i suppose cuz she is wearin a blue-shirt (jobe-san) sit down n have a face to face talk with XiaoP. XiaoP is a smart gal, when her frenz tell her that jobe findin her, she knew something is wrong rite away, but she din expect it to be so fast.

haiz, poor XiaoP, i suspect she got back-stab, but back-stabber are everywhere, she told me wat happen, after listenin, i find it so unfair to her. Haiz... The manager say so much shit, i believe wat is in her mind is juz to force XiaoP to quit or wan fired her lor. say wat boss also don like her, cant stand her, she say nv put her heart, say she nv smile, say she lazy, do think only 50%, makin ppl need do 150%, den say noone wan partner her. den even say she no patient. WORST!!! say her, say she wanna challenge her is it!!! swt! she is wearin black shirt, like wat is require lor! that manager is tryin to pick a fight, tryin to find excuses!!! Sometime XiaoP is being stuck in between two senior, one say this, that other say that, wat should she do? listen to who? she do this or that also wrong, cuz one will be unhappy!!! can someone save her? Well i guess, she has to tolerated. but her manager give her till end of this month, if not i think maybe wan fired her le... but i think she wont have the heart to work n stay for so long le... her heart is shattered, disappointed n hurt le... cuz of one sentence... her manager ask her, is it she wan everyone else to quit because of her. cuz she only do 50%, ppl do 150% include hers, very tired, so quit n don wan work.. this make me even more sure n conclude that, they juz findin excuses to sack her. she so good at bar, the manager say, she hired a service line person, not a bartender!~ FUCKER!!! Practically a BITCH LA!!!! zzz haiz... i pity her now... hope she is fine... Ok, i tml need work, i log off here le... NiTeZz

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, April 12, 2007~~

11:42:00 AM

been workin full shift for so many days since last week, den again, after today, i gona work full shift for few more days... tiring. I fallin sick again le... *cough cough*...

i got my sch timetable le, guess wat my mother say when i tell her my timetable. she say, work after sch la! wa, think i machine ar. can tahan, i now already half-dead le... haiz, donno how to think le leh, make me so piss off... How how, my sch will last for three week wor. though it is in june.. but haiz, i really donno how la... sian half. how to study one full day den work wor, sure late for work de, somemore sch n workplace not that near leh, although workplace near my hse la. n if i was to work after sch, i also cant hit the 44hr 1 week, den how to earn more money. mami ar, can u know how to think? not i wan 3min hot speed, but tiring leh. moreover, i m only soon to be 19, so now still 18, still young, i wan have fun ar!!! work n work super no life lor... sad sad.

This fri, bluey comin sg again. but his schedule is so full. haha, poor thing. i hope he can get some vacation soon, workin too hard, will overwork, end up gettin sick, n thing will be sloppy, might as well don do, take a break, relax, den everything do till the best, hehe, hmm, but everyone is diff la. but abit heartpain la.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, April 11, 2007~~

12:18:00 PM

Been workin everyday, so tired, full shift somemore... wan die liao wor... true that i will get more pay, but i very slack le... sloppy work done, get scolded, sometime its not even my fault at all.. haiz.. with a whole stomach of anger.. haiz, i m at a lost of speeches, maybe cuz i m woreout n overwork le... nvm, tml i can have a break, an off day, yipee...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, April 04, 2007~~

10:00:00 PM

Juz another plain day, but today is a different brand new day. Everything seem normal, yet its not.. since mornin when i wakey, mami aint at home... den later on, she come back awhile n went out again. oterh den red rice, there aint any food... starve!!!! Den heard that she went to see doctor, well ok den...

During noon time, i m so tired, so i went to take a nap, but who know. i kinda overslept. Lucky got bluey call me up, if not i think i really late le. Yet mami still not back, n there is no food, so i rush to work...

I wonder wat time they got back home, well, but nvm... den today i got gastric pain during work, n they allowance me to go home early. Hopefully they will let me have my off on next monday, but kinda hard...

Mami today seem to be in a foul mood, well, she always is in a foul mood.. haha, baka... i m so irritated n sian by my family le. my bro like to cry... haiz, donno he boy or girl sia... cry so much de... swt!! Well, that bout all, i only got 10min to say all i wanna say, not enuff time argh!!!

Haiz, i m so tired of juz workin n workin, i wanna have fun too, but no time, erm, ok not no time... is no ppl T.T i don like going out alone!!! nor with juz with 1 more person, its so sian, i like the more, the merrier, of course with nice ppl la!!! So who wanna ask me out n have fun??? i wan go gai gai, n play!! but i don wan date =X hehe

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, April 02, 2007~~

8:45:00 PM

Today i got injure at work again, the bao xian zi, there got a 'line of knife'(the aluminum foil that knife, so can cut the poly plastic paper use de, accidentally cut my hand, below my wrist, den its bleed... my frenz saw le was so shock... den help me clean it n put plaster, cuz i m very busy, doin dessert for the customer. *blood ar!!!! bleed ar, such a few scratches, yet its bleed"

Hehe, so happy to hear bluey de voice once i wakey, well, actually is cuz bluey wake me up.. haha, i wakey, yet i slp back, so bluey call n wake me up, scare i m late for work... hmm, other small detail, i don wan share with u all, i greedy... so skip skip skip....

Oh ya, den today, one of the trainee manager(cristal) cry. well, i saw her crying, but i don really know wat happen... den as we are havin lunch today, some of the senior there sit ard n talk with me too, haha, den some of the cock are so kawaii. as in manner la... no look or wat ar.. if u know wat i mean... haha... But i also heard that, if there is a chance, they wan to sack 00(linlin)... haha... she really cmi sia...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, April 01, 2007~~

10:18:00 PM

haha, XiaoP so kawaii, everyday posted to bar, but she sure muz felt very honour. Being juz a trainee yet she is posted to the bar alone... Haha, so xin fu.. they should promote her sia... Ytd is sat, n today which is sun, is weekend, sure alot of ppl, n they have such a long queue, n cant u imagine??? they leave her alone in bar, wow, they think so highly of her... i feel so happy for her too...

But ytd her bar jam one time, cuz so many customers, so many order... den only she alone... den even the ocha need her to boil n make... pity her too.... But today, at first all was doing find, den they send one of her colleague in to 'help' her...( cuz her boss don wan that gal outside) den end up, that colleague (name is linlin aka 00) cuz her bar to jam, she do everything so slow... den nvm... been ask her... do thing also not nice... need all redo, even dare talk back to manager... swt... haiz... even take the ice-cream to wash!!! wth!!! Den end up, the post her out again... den her bar is back to normal again... Haha, i think today she work till wan cry, i can imagine how angry she is... Haha, oh ya, one more thing shock her too... well i think her colleagues are cute, all like to disturb her, well, as least time pass fast, n easier to pass eh.. Den one of her colleague from today onwards start callin her dear, so funny... that incident, even when she tell me, i cant stop laughin at her... haha... (ben-san is the culprit)

My leg is hurtin me, there is blister. oh no, is the toes nail, come out by a little, hurt when i walk... sob sob... Oh well, mother shoutin as usual eh.. beta sign off here for today, but i got so much more to say............................

Will you ever notice me...