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~~Tuesday, August 28, 2007~~

4:17:00 PM

hehe, lately i feel very happy, so light-headed... well... i also donno... i been pondering at myself for some time already, although i appear very confident, but i m startin to losin faith, if he really still wan think of negative thing.. i startin to need more assurance, i wan assure him too... M i really jux to stubbon? do i really deep in love with him? who can tell me? love is complex, but i know i tio his poison.. hehe, cant do without him for now... i miss him, think of him... wanted to stay quiet n listen too...

last night i heard some of his 'story' feel happy that he is openin up to me.. i get more n more jealous, n i mind more n more... every single detail, i also know he really very care me.. i startin to feel dependent on him, yet i don really dare. Scare, scare of losin him, or hurtin him... being more detail too... =/

today i come across a something, which touch my heart.. although i ahevn read all the full story, but i wanna share with u guys... http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou.htm

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, August 26, 2007~~

12:37:00 AM

Jux now have some conflict with him... my heart darn pain now... really very heartbroken... mum is like addin salt to it, naggin n scold behind... i really on the verge of crying...

T.T why m i like this? i feel so fragil, how long more can i perserve? i m losin faith, how long can i lie to myself say i m full of confident? i don wan lose him... wher else can i say now? i m lose... i wan prevent him from gettin hurt, yet he always get hurt...

I know i like change topic, but why do i, cus i know if continue that, someone will sad, i don wan, yet he say i act blur n got angry, i know he dislike, but if we talk bout that incident, he more angry, i really donno wat to do, can someone pls teach me...

I feel as if i m dead, my heart hurt so much... so pain... T.T tears flowin down madly jux like a pipe with a faulty tap...

Really hopin he understand, i really donno how, at wit-end... i really truely love him only... i m so lost, can someone guide me n help me? teach me how? i donno is it rite to control my temper, sometime i wan yell at him ask him wakey. yet sometime... i choose not to....

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, August 20, 2007~~

12:25:00 PM

XD today is a nice and happy day... 20th of august 2007.(20082007) i m darn happy, its feel sweet, i feel relax too, like a question mark solve and a stone put down... actually not so serious a =X hehe, i only very very happy.... cus i kinda got my wish... maybe i do have it all along, but its still abit unsure cus he nv say it... now he did... XD happy happy happy~ fhooooooooooooooooooooo.....

Two day ago, which is sat, i m workin, on an event, well my cousin kinda ask me wan go ma, work from 10.30am to 3pm, but need reach at bout 8am, i will receive 50bucks for it. dress code is white polo-t, bermudas, sandals.

All gear up n ready to go, well, u know my mum like to prepare, so she make me bring an extra set, as well as sandals too... haha, in prediction, its goin to rain =X

Wow that day, i really wet till drop soup chix. XD den the rubber, ballooney castle, for those kids to jump and play ard, fly away~ lucky got a tree, if not crash into the stage le... the stage also almost fly away wor~.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, August 16, 2007~~

9:15:00 PM

Today i saw this on one of my frenx de display pic, its kinda small, so it make me kinda curious, cus it look like everyone is typing one letter, so i ask her to send to me, wow, its darn nice, so i decided to upload to my blog. XD It pretty aint it ^^

today i also heard that one of my frenx is sellin movix tix, i will support her de... "INTERESTERED IN WATCHING RATATOUILLE MOVIE AT $5 (included drinks) on 8 Sept 2007 at 5pm SUNTEC EW." do let me know, can jux tag me, den i think she also will be able to see it de.

Oh ya, pls treasure whoever u love, and don live to regret, spend everyday happily tgt and don quarrel or conflict over the tiniest thingys, and try to talk peace and tolerate, den from a tiny thing will turn to nth at all. try to be understandin n be there for one another ^^ the song below is delicated to all lovers

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, August 15, 2007~~

10:35:00 AM

ytd alot of ppl tio ban. haha, teach ppl not to bot but den again... no comment...

lately so tired, yet i cant slp... Zzz.... but so glad have someone nice pei, hehe, i will treasure him de! wakakakaka....

actually i have no idea wat i wan to blog, cus so many tosay, suddenly my brain so messy also...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, August 03, 2007~~

11:13:00 PM

Zzzz, sometime i feel like i wan to regret, move back in time, but den again, well, if it really happen, i think i may do it again... well, at least when i choose that choice, my parents are happy, to u all, i may be a mami's gal, but i aint, i m force to, under such high lv of pressures.. Haiz, can anyone understand?

Lookin at it in another way, well, its like, i m havin a brand new start gua... XD yea.. not everyone can restart n do it a second time de wor... hehe... though i don deny that i m feelin moody... but well... ok den, its ok, i m strong n still can cope, hehe, jux slackin n wastin my day... one by one....

Haiz, now even the last desktop is givin comp.. i think its will crash sooner or later, haiz... that time i will get miserable... now its already abit weird...

zzzzz...... sometime really wish to shut my ears... nasty thing are flowin in... cus i know i cant shut my mum up nor can i zip her gap. haiz, its juz irritatin.. sometime juz wan my own peace... feelin quiet yet not alone... havin some frenx to talk to, have fun... i know its weird to smile to oneself, at least, u are smilin cuz ur happy which come from deep within not a fake one.. but why does she always wan to smash my dreams?

Well, last night i din get to slp a wink, feelin very stun now.. although i feel like stayin ard the comp, wait for my frenz, den we can chit chat, but i know i cant.... cus mami..... Sigh~~

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, August 02, 2007~~

12:09:00 AM

hahaha, ytd night, when the help of my mami, i bake some cookies, really super duper yummy sia... i m in love with it. not say i self-praise but its nice ma... rofl.. today i bring some out for my frenxs. Suppose to meet two ppl, but den, one of them put me aeroplane, donno is she forgot or wat. hais... disappointed.. rofl, den some other of my frenx say, why nv give them, den try all ways n means to scam my cookies... say no cookies no wat... swt, but they are cutesssss........ so kawaii des neh!

i seem to move on... seem to don care so much le... well, did my heart really let go? well, don care for now, don think will be happy XD n make it stay that way... no future at all, why care. Though i feel empty but days still passes by this... *blink* one day gone jor... lonely sia...

Hope my cert fast fast come, den i can go study a degree.. den wont stay at home, make parents not happy... Lately i saw a competition, i really feel like joinin sia... its did say abit of my heart-felt thingy too.. well, if i win, not only did i win a notebook but also a winnie the pooh limited edition notebook worth 2.5K SGD, somemore only need send in my blog with a post on, why i cant live without my comp or notebook.. well, tis kinda easy, but prob is the pw, i don have both T.T

Will you ever notice me...