this is the detail for the post 『Ended earlier den expected』 (warnin very long post a, somemore today got two post... hehe)

all along, i know i cant let go.. i love him... i miss him... i msg him hoping for a reply or something, but as time passes, i lose hope... that very day, i pluck up my courage and give him a call, hopin he will pick up. and he did, i was so happy, but he say call me later that night, bout midnight... ( i call him at bout 11plus.) so i waited for his call, till bout 3plus, i doze off totally le... den i awake at 6 due to a nightmare... after awhile which is 6plus, my phone ring, so happy, is he call de. i pick up...
Me: Wei Wei~
FM: nv slp a?
Me: got a, juz wake up not long.
FM: u always de la.. either juz wake up or cos nightmare. so accurate meh. u say wat den wat lor.
Me: really la...
(after few min of normal chattin)
Me: wa nv call me de, sms u also don wan reply
FM: think tell u before don like smsin, i also nv see.
Me: swt, wat if one day i went missin?
FM: can tell de, if wan go, go lor... also cant stop.
Me: who say, maybe can, u don try donno ma.
(after another few min of normal chattin)
Me: so next week u free?
FM: ya, where u wan go?
Me: hmm donno, eat u? Ha Ha...
FM: ok, den prefer napkit, fork, knife leh.
Me: Wa serious a, haha... siao...
(after another few min of normal chattin)
FM: u wat lv le
Me: same lor 128 nia, nv train
FM: when can u use back comp
Me: can dy a, juz that not home.
FM: can tell. got diff de, if home, one day 2 to 3 sms, if outside, very few.
Me: so smart a.
(he den startin askin bout game stuffs, like pets)
FM: got wat type of pet a, lv1
Me: fruitlet,chix,snake,crab,chivet cat...(answer very flatly)
FM: the look like doreamon de?
Me: ya (answer flatly, cos who have mood talk bout game sia?)
FM: maybe i should go find hunnygirl, den discuss bout 4-leave clover, juz nice sia, she got 38, i got 50 can change for pet.............. (continue talkin......)
Me: *zzzzz talkin bout hunny again* orh(answer very flatly)
FM: so ke lian, no hero at all, owe rayong money, owe ur baby 10 or 11m, sell all hero also cant get enough back... ur angel there got one chao a, last time got dy or i nv notice?
Me: *zzz still game stuff, haiz..* last time got dy, frenz de wat...(still flat in tone)
FM: everytime also say frenz de...
Me: but its real wat! (abit angry)
FM: need show me attitude meh?
Me: no a, where got? (pretend nth happen)
FM: can take ur white tiger fan go upgrade when my lv there
Me: *zzzzzz so exp.. don give u not happy den say our thinkin diff, everytime say i say my frenz de, cant, but really my frenz de wat, zzz, need think for them also lor, if my own, sure don mind lend u de lor, other ppl de...* ok lor(answer very flatly)
FM: ok bye
Me: [tendency to say wat i think] wa! makin use of me a? *jokinly say it... hehe*
FM: knew u wont say that, that why purposely say bye.
(pause for a moment)
FM: zzz, even when i know u goin say it, but den u still say it...
(pause again)
FM: u very WEI DA meh!
Me: *zzz wtf, i jokin with u nia, i think i m, ppl is give me face lor, i so let u somemore, if u think u don wan depend, don take a thing at all, don use la... wth lor.. like this say me.* no a(say in a apologetic manner)
(pause again)
(lazy say all detail le)
FM: bye, i wan call my frenz
Me: *so shattered n sad... yet... the more i think i m angry* wei, don like this la...
FM: bye, i wan call my frenz.
Me: haiz....
FM: bye.
Me: bye. (den hang up, with my heart hurtin... bleeedin le.. did i do wrong? always let him, let him eat me? i.................. ********************************)
(speechless le.... )