Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?


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两个世界的人,可以是朋友、可以是仇人、可以错身而过,但是如果 他们相爱了,结局只有走上灭绝的命运。就像飞鸟恋上鱼,拼了命想 厮守一起,但却是害了对方,毁了自己。

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Wednesday, January 30, 2008
2:37:00 PM

Gxgx to my frenz, who are goin to marry soon... lolz, although juz ROM. he think till very hard. where to treat, oh well, he goin invite me... haha!

lolz, my poor blue slipper has open her mouth le, time to throw n buy a new one, well, think its with me for 1yrs plus? or do it have 2yr? nah, doubt it... haiz, think my hp, more n more cui already!

cant wait for tml bball with frenz, can let out some anger, n can lose wt! lolz!!!

guess well, ya rite, my life is happenin!! so happenin, yipeeeeeeeeeee fun~ make me stronger too.

anyone need a counsilor? find me find me?!! keke~


the 2min plus there got a nice song =}

Will you ever notice me...

Tuesday, January 29, 2008
2:18:00 PM

i totally donno wat to say le... i got no other ways to removes my saddness except here, i don wan cry infront of frenz, i don even wan to cry. so sry for those who are readin, cos being so emo lately... oh well, its will stop, i agree, life is gd, but when it suddenly juz seem crashin down. how can i juz stand up so fast? i cant... i m fragile, not as strong as u think... (zzz ppl lately keep ask, nv go out with bf a *hurts*)

been nv drink so much, till i got so darn blur. i cant even walk straight, ok bad move... but wat to do, other den my own pain, my frenz inflake pain in me... seein alot with my eyes, its darn hurts. seeing my frenz got hurt, i can kinda feel it too. wat with 2008? so many thingy start to happen in the month of jan? its only the startin of a brand new years! till now i still so blur, n to think i even mix it with medi!! (lettin a little secret, my hand injure startin to return, i notice it last night... wtf, why!!! izzi cos i did skip medi? i don wan my hand to keep shakin) ok enuff of all this shit... cos today i m juz startin to feel fine, why torture myself, why don work hard? change myself? learn to be a beta person? prove i m worth it man! hahaha, okok, time to look for decent job, mum fkin me liao... blame me all those bullshit. cant she juz give me some peace, makin me so don feel like goin back.

[this mornin, i have a very wonderful dream. oh well, although its a dream, but i juz glad =} it make me smile when i wake up. i m only 19+ with a bright future, yipeeeeeeeeeee! if i juz do anything, rot, stay at the same spot, i cant achieve anything, that will disappoint ppl ard me, aint it! lolz, rain~ u wan be my eng tutor? =} for free? hahahaha
i dream of my prince though, was with one other guy, i got no idea who izzi, den we went for supper, down a lane... to a shop at the street, sellin porridge i think... i was talkin to my prince... was askin why... den it hit me, when i know, we din communicated well(in the dream la) i found out he don like me goin out so much with those frenz... oh no, my bad, but why din he tell me... lolz... n we talk more bout it, communicate. N ya, he was still holdin my hand.. so sweet.... n after talkin all out, he stop me, n give me a kiss *fhooooo* sweet. lolz... n its juz went fine...
cos i awake from my dream liao. rofl!]
*P.S the last para above its only a dream =}

Will you ever notice me...

Monday, January 28, 2008
2:28:00 PM

lately keep cant slp well at all, keep havin nightmares... i keep slpin n wakin up, on n off..... sry for the laoya language here, but oh well... not really into the mood, i will keep this short....

thks xuan jie for sendin me all the pic =D they are nice sweet memories....

sry for croppin myself at home this few days, juz so not right... i juz so down..... but well, today i will go out, need return library book, n frenz keep ask me out. should not make them worried cos of me.. but oh well, how long do i really need? how long can i act fine? i know i been sobbin at night, but why? its juz hurt... feel the pain n the flow of my blood n tears..... nvm, i shall end it here... goin to the library n chill there.

i now totally hate the lonely silent nightsssssssssssssss

Will you ever notice me...

Saturday, January 26, 2008
2:49:00 PM


A Taste Of Love 美味情緣

XD happy that i found my true love, glad that it cross my path.. though i wish it last.... but i can only let nature take it course, wat mine is mine, it will come back to me, but if its not mine, no matter how i tie it, it wont be mine.. i can give up almost anything for it... i willing to sacrifise and do anything for my prince, cos i love him... its there. always will be...

*paste a plaster on my heart* to stop the bleedin for the time being... hopin that he will come back for me... sittin at the very same spot n wait... wait for the hand... wait for him.... pls return for me one day... [ i will wait for u!]

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, January 24, 2008
2:39:00 PM


today been the worst day of my day! few days ago, i juz have a bad dream, which i got blog bout it. n ytd wat my mum say... i was hopin its juz a nightmare, juz some words... but bad stuffs always happen to me.

my worlds seem to collaspe n tropple down... the light seem to fades, leavin into the dark... its seem like, i m awaken from my sweet dream of being the xin fu little princess...

why is everything so cruel, its feel like someone use a knife n stab me... why don someone really do it? at least, it will really lessen to pain... its juz so suddenly... so hurt... a sudden call from earth to my dream.. waking me up from my lovely sweet little world, which i have been enjoying.

wat have i done to really deserve this? wat? can someone tell me? i really tot i found my mr.right... suddenly, i felt so lost, i m totally so emo now... its juz sux. cos now i m speechless, donno wat to say... cos no matter how i try or wat i say will no longer works... nth will help.....

i really love u....... <3 T.T

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, January 23, 2008
1:26:00 PM

bf been busy lately..... mum keep askin, nv go out with bf a. i was like, well he is busy... but guess wat she say, omg so classic!!! he got other gal izzi, he go with other gals a?!!! wtf, hurtin! but she still luffin away! lolz.... hahaha wat a mum.... but den again... its ok... i know he love me ^^ cos i love him too. one n only <3 =D

Will you ever notice me...

Tuesday, January 22, 2008
7:49:00 AM

Will you ever notice me...

Monday, January 21, 2008
4:53:00 PM

Every girl dreams that one
day she will
find a boy that does these things for
her. Even the smallest action can have
the BIGGEST impact in someones life.

• give her one of your t-shirts to
sleep in.

• leave her cute text notes.

• kiss her in front of your friends.

• tell her she is gorgeous..

• look into her eyes when you talk to
her.

• let her mess with your hair

• touch her hair.

• just walk around with her.

• "FORGiVE HER FOR HER MiSTAKES"

• look at her like she`s the only one
you see.

• tickle her even when she says stop.

• hold her hand when you`re around your
friends.

• when she starts swearing at you, tell
her you love her.

• let her fall asleep in your arms..

• get her mad, then kiss her.

• tease her and let her tease you back.

• stay up all night with her when she`s
sick.

• watch her favorite movie with her.

• kiss her forehead.

• give her the world.

• write her letters.

• let her wear your clothes.

• when she`s sad, hang out with her.

• let her know she`s important.

• let her take all the photos she wants
of you.

• kiss her in the pouring rain.

• when you fall in love with her, tell
her.

• and when you tell her, love her like
you've never loved someone before.


actually, i found this somewhere, den i feel that its quite meaningful so i decided to share XD

n btw, i saw a pic of last time that hulijing, OMFG! she is darn fugly UGLY!!!!!!!!! lolz =X omg, i m so bad! but maybe that explain why ppl now leave her gua, cos they saw her pic le. i see le also, omgomgomg. well, let them regret ba.

Will you ever notice me...

12:52:00 PM

suddenly i wish there is no time limit in this world. nth at all. no need slp or wat... juz unlimited time, pause or something. or maybe i wan to have that super power. i really wan it. so i can help ppl, well help myself first la. of course i come first, try the skill ma.

Ytd was my dead grandma anniversary. bout late afternoon time, i went for bball with some of my frenz (lately i always out with the same groups, abit happy, i found a new clique to go out with so i know how to spend abit of my time, rather den think too much n wont feel down)

ytd skai's bike got kinda smash, ppl hit n run, wtf sia.. why are some ppl so evil... see the dmg also, zzzz, lolz, sure very exp... poor thing, lucky got insurance to cover, but not cfm will get, the bike beside his is even worst, wat more, its a malaysia bike. den one eye-witness who saw wat happen, so happen to tell me, where i ask him to tell the police, its a silver car or silver top de vehicle. how childish and lame can some ppl get?

lately my bf is so busy, i juz wish for more time.. no matter how i understand.. i will still miss him... why is he so darn busy everyday? i know he need work, need earn money.. but i also need some time.

Will you ever notice me...

Saturday, January 19, 2008
8:37:00 PM


想太多 MV 完整版

frenz intro this song, its nice... so i decided to upload it here.... mum keep fkin me. zzzz... always this n that, i m moody n upset enuff le... missing my bf badly..................................... don think le.

mum ask me don slp, slp in living room. yea watever... shout this and that... haiz... so many hurts.......... all kept in my heart........... *hurtin* *crying* (tears are rollin why cant i stop them? too emo for my own gd, but why care? let her say wat she wan, juz try improve, why can i say it yet i dono how to do it? feelin so weak.... m i really so fragile? where my stand of support? well its there alright, but i dono wat to say. complain n stuffs? think it also sick of my talkin sooner or later? its not nice to throw other ppl ur own burden when he has his own too, juz wishin n wantin him by my side. a quiet hug or the feelin of its there is nice enuff, plus lately super lotsa of weird dream, its givin me the creep.)

thinkin of gettin car lisence, well at least i m 'schoolin' haha, learnin to drive a car! oh well, see how, i juz cant decide.

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, January 17, 2008
3:00:00 PM

Can U imagine!!! i saw yogurt when i was at the bus interchange n goin to the mrt station. was so shock!! haha, well, sg sure is small like wat my prince say, but its like, wow so qiao a!

den pei my prince go some places, and tada, i m home... lolz... so slpy lor =X lolz... see him like so leng dan today, well, cant blame him, think he is fan n not enuff slp! lolz!!! at least i not so worried like ytd le la.. but i see him like that, i feel quite helpless, i donno how to cheer him up, donno wat to say, i can only be there for him, beside him. assumin him that i will be ther for him!

today, got one person bully me, oh well, if u all are my frenz, feel free to call this number anytime, anyday, best is call in the middle of night 92320881 . gay or guy or anyone, even alien or ghost also can call de. no wonder =b

IMMPA(i miss my prince already) lolz.....

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, January 16, 2008
6:49:00 PM


nv seen such a cat n ungentlemanly tut b4! L.C.P.I.G. He is FAT UGLY & CMI .. agreed-ed by alot of other ppl too!!! OMFG!!! lolz.. think this gay really suck la, n he is none other de LoneZtar. well other of my frenz or maybe his frenz too agree... those agree, i wont put name. lolz, later he kill us all, that gay really got the typical despo look!

Will you ever notice me...

Monday, January 14, 2008
12:42:00 PM

fhooo~ how time fly. 1month dy XD.. maybe, when u are happy, time flew faster, when everything seem like juz tml. happy happy. oh ya, too bad, no potato salad for him, lolz... nice dude... but den again, i m kinda lazy too... hehe...

last night i have a weird dream bout my grandma, donno why, i lately keep havin weird dream. i m so like a panda now...

lately den i found out how stupid i have been.. there been alot of misunderstandin with my frenz... oh well, but its all a past le, so point thinkin bout it? but, why do i kinda feel like, its abit unfair? its there is no misunderstand, maybe it wont be like now...

oh well... i got so much in mind, but i kinda havin trouble puttin it into words. yea, chill!!! time to slowly do wat i plan, n not juz plannin n puttin it aside, cos might as well don even waste time plannin if not even goin to do it.

hmmm, mum now intro job to me. cool, how cool can my mum be. but sometime they get on my nerve (my bro n my mum with all the shoutin goin on at my hse, its so noisy, that i feelin so emo, cant there juz be peace? makin me feel like don wan stay at home)

Will you ever notice me...

Sunday, January 13, 2008
9:18:00 PM

today i went over to my cousin place (my 3rd aunt's son) his son havin a 1month old celebration today... goin to his place is kinda easy, cos my prince kinda give me the guide, n i do know abit of the way there le... hehe, thkz to the teachin of my prince la. well, he stay at blk6**, after goin there, reach bout 12, ard there la (need bring my parent there first, cos at least i know where izzi, but my parent kinda have no idea ma, after my dad send his van to be kill, we hardly really go out, by public transport is not really convenience, cos waste time ma.) den after droppin parents n greetin my cousin n relative, well they are all late as usual de la, den i went to find my prince, oh well, he stay near there, haha, i took bout 30min to reach his place, errr, abit lost the way, but oh well, i found it in the end ^^ den after that, he went to work, n i went back find my parents, was so starvin n hungry but no food, den we went over to another cousin place, she is the sister of that cousin, and she stay near too, at blk 5**. We heat up the buffet food and have dinner there, hehe, if not i die of hunger which i almost did... ate so lateeeeeeeee.... den we watch a movie, den we went back home... (my cousin husband chat with us. ok everyone is chit-chatin bout the past, like how the childhood, catch fish, prawn, earthworm, climb tree, play rubber band n so on)

wow, its so nice to see my prince after so long, been missin him so much.. he like to disturb me as usual.. but well, i still love him like i always do (cos he is the best!)

Hehe, i almost dig out how dad n my mum date! how they met and so on, but my stupid bro keep interrupt! Zzz, but at least i know some, will tell u bout it next time, n i will continue to dig more =X oh ya, juz now went walkin to take transport back, at my cousin place, we walk pass shop n save den got a cai sheng yv there, den he pass us an ang bao with a lucky number, i open it, its "5660".

Guess wat, on the way home, we saw the branch of a tree fall down!! the rain muz have been darn big to do that huge damage to a tree... n when we reach home, no matter how i press the switch, the light wont be on, den we knew it, BLACK OUT!! oh well, actually. its juz short circuit la... muz be due to the heavy rain too. make the electricity trip.

Will you ever notice me...

Saturday, January 12, 2008
12:21:00 PM

ytd went out with some peeps to causeway point, for dinner buffet. which include (bat, ryan, mar, new, mid, aiyo n of course me rite) after dinner we went to play pool(i.r.c at bukit timah there, beside beauty world) den went to chill n drink coffee(the indian prata shop opposite), den chat den back, wow, i reach home at 3.45am! cool, so late!! haha, stupid newlife, keep kajiao n bully me, sob sob, he so evil!!! wow, guess we lost our way tryin to find mar place... lolz. everyone is kinda fun n a kind soul.. hope they have lotsa fun, cos i did... well, of course i miss my bf alot la...

!!! my mum say i forgot lock the door!!! OMG!!! lolz, ok typical sotong me =X

yipee, tml i can get to see him le.. cant wait cant wait!! cos he juz so totally rox!!! hope my potato salad is a success, well, hope i can wait early la =X

feel like sharin abit more bout ytd fun, but den.. so many words, donno where to start. everyone is unqiue n cute... oh well.. i m always the joke of the day =X wakakaka. i m so godlike! maybe slowly i will tell u bout them, today i m lazy... I LOVE MY PRINCE! yipee!!

Will you ever notice me...

Friday, January 11, 2008
9:54:00 AM

haiz, tonight outing is cancel, so disappointed, my ex-colleague (robinsons groups) they postpone it to next week instead. but nv fear, i goin out with other frenz for dinner tonight... stay home more, will tio f by my mum.

mum kinda blame me for losin mj, hais.. watever la! don care le... why be so emo due to her? FUCK CARE IT! let her scold all she wan, blame all she wan, she is mum wat, everything also correct de! i kinda hate this place now sia!

now i startin to wonder, i think i m too controllin also... argh, hate myself...! wat there to worry, don care him la!. think i really go do some work ba, den wont think so much le... later tio sian qi den i know! Zzzz... well, its his choice of wat to do.. u cant do anything bout it, but why m i piss off? cos i m worried? cos i wan him to have his rest? but why din he get my hint? or did he wan my rest that why he din call nor give me a reply? oh well, freak me! next day have to work, still dono play till wat time. not only did u have to work, u also need to sch one lor! think bout urself ma. i was worried u not enuff slp, but i don wan to really control u, afteral, its u, so its ur choice, but why m i so upset n piss off by it? i aint sure which one u choose, cos u din call or let me know also... but it only make me think, u forsake ur slp juz for dota? WTF!~ haiz, watever.. i m juz too controllin, wake up!!! *slap myself* maybe my less den 3hr of slp is makin me so blur... headache!! watever la!

donno why cant slp back... think i needa be more understanding, give him more space ba. my bad... oh well... juz ventin off all my steam of anger here.... u all can ignore this post... sry guys... Oh Well, I LOVE MY PRINCE STILL AND TILL THE DAY I DIE. <3

my aunt come over my place XD, haha, she say i slim down le, den she n my mum start to gossip, den disturb me bout my prince. lolz, as usual.

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, January 09, 2008
8:15:00 PM

haiz, ytd was the worst day in my life sia. i m so freakin piss off... n juz utterly disappoint n upset!! haiz... though i understand. its for the future... partly cos transport fee... but den... i juz cant accept the fact ma.. i hate ppl being late n puttin me aeroplane de lor!!! T.T haiz... i have nv been so angry n upset at my bf... but cant blame him totally also.. its kinda late too.. haha, that pig! haiz. oh well... its over also le... time to forgive n forget.. but juz wanna complain abit more!!! HumpH!!!!! miss him ma.....(den again, he say relatively bout 7pm to 10pm mean not cfm, but i juz wanna complain!!! hahahaha! evil me)

today i get to meet him awhile... he tease me again... haha, peekin n stalkin me, his favourite activity, haha, its kinda scary sometime... Humph. somemore he luff till like that, say its his best entertainment of the day. oh well, at least it bring some life, brightened up the day, make me forgot the worry. he gettin his bike soon. oh well, hope it get it fast. i wish to spend more time with him... after he go ns, sure lesser time... 2yrs sia.. hmmm.... oh well, walk one day see one day...

juz now saw my pri sch teacher, omg, she rmb me sia!! she spot me de wor... she say see my face rmb me, mean i nv change sia, except maybe now fatter den pri sch, yea! juz as pretty. JK =X den i buy some ingredient to make potato salad... Den wait for bro to off sch, fetch him home, this noon also i go fetch him home de...

awww, i m feelin so tired n slpy, think i continue tml ba... sry guys.......... anyway, thks fm, saw ur tag. how u lately?

Will you ever notice me...

Tuesday, January 08, 2008
5:47:00 PM

y is my mood swinging? weird, so i mood swing so fast? oh well... i m juz emo? No!! i cannot be emo!!! why i feel so moodless, oh well, will juz go out myself first den, after dinner cos i m starvin but wth, parents din cook, oh well!... hmmm... suppose to go out today, but den, pauline work till like 8, so delay. haiz... but today was abit upset with my bf... haiz! oh well, forgive him le, but i wanna blog bout it. i know its a joke, but well, it do hurt abit, feel like all my frenz are so bad, put aeroplane or those, half-hearted... oh well... donno, its me i guess. haha. or maybe, its juz that i m emo, that why i take it to heart, blah, who care!

ytd, went out walk walk with him... was fun... oh well, busy boy.. need work, wow! man too, don let gal pay, but sometime i wish, he let me help too. though i donno how la. rofl! see him unhappy also don feel gd. haha. but he was so mean ytd! he give me a scare!! by huggin me from behind, as i was lookin at some stuffs. baka!!!! oh well, i tot he was somewhere walkin, donno he reach le. Humph!! oh well, he is always full of surprises.

this comin sun, goin to my cousin hse, cos his son is 1month old, well, will get to meet my prince for awhile.. hehe... oh well, cos near ma... cck(bp area) ok la... not that near also. rofl!

ok, i m goin out le, goin to the library. juz wan to waste sometime... being bored rottin at home... too noisy, wan some peace n quiet, oh well, if u guys wan go out, jio me too... those who read my blog de also can jio me la. have some outing or watever i don care! i juz wan go out have fun. enuff of stayin behind the comp n between the four wall! waste den jail, somemore got noise pollution... love the beautiful world! (after someone add colour to it for me)

Will you ever notice me...

Saturday, January 05, 2008
4:59:00 PM

Ytd, finally, prince got a day off, so we went out walk walk, we even watch a movie, alien vs predator... awww, the gov kill the whole town of ppl, sad T.T... its so gross, n in the end everyone die. wat to do... but got 4surviver la, got 1 kids, 1 gal, 2guy, haha, spoilter, don wan tell u all le.. guess wat, we even bring pastamania pasta in to eat!! power!

he at first suppose to meet someone at town at 6plus, who know change to 9pm at his hse, den later that person put him aeroplane, change date.. den we went to walk somemore, we juz love each other company.. den we took bus back... haha, went back alone.. juz so miss him.. haha, cant too rely on him... but its for our future, yea! let work for it!!! juz love him... more n more each day!! hehe, nv ever sick of him, nv enuff of his company! next week, he gona start sch le.. awww, need sch n work, lesser time for me.. T.T torture a!!!

well, i wont let him work alone... i will support him mentally, plus massage, though i not gd at it la, learnin to be a gd wife. hehe... muz muz... its a muz!!! let start with potato salad. but well, i can get to meet him comin monday ^^, oh well, i needa go out for family dinner le... so that all for today... feelin kinda miss........

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, January 03, 2008
1:06:00 PM

for some reason, i cant slp last night, keep tossin n turnin, keepin my eye wide open, till almost 7am in the mornin, den i finally doze off, but who know, at 10plus, someone msg me, overseas msg somemore, who the hell is it? i really wonder.. but who care... but why i cant slp, i also donno why.. juz keep thinkin, or is it juz that tots run into my mind... wow, wat goin on, feelin insecure again? or izzi jus that, something is botherin me? den again, no leh, i trusted him... i m please n happy with my prince, meanin its something else, family, although its noisy, fan, make me don like my home, wat its still my home... frenz? but why let them affect me? thinkin thru wat those msges... make me feel uneasy, thinkin of the past year, den again, why care, look forward n forget the past, i feel like del all the old msges in my hp yet abit don bare, maybe later on i will do it... *last night, i did something silly =X always the silly me, i overdoze on my own medi, suppose to take 1 doze, i took 4 doze instead =/ end up keep vomitin, swt.. scare myself too...*

new aim for the year, for now i only got two, keke, 1st is stay happy daily, n my prince also happy la, 2nd one is learn to cook, to be a gd wife in future.. keke, i got the motivation, but i m abit lazy.

for some reason, donno why i dream of monster and stuffs, i seem to dream of my prince everyday, maybe cos i miss him too much, and always thinkin of him, but for some reason, last night short dream turn out unpleasent, i dreamt that he block me on his msn, but why? i still donno, maybe its the insecurity deep inside my heart(to be real honest, i m scare.. i know i trust him, but i cant help being scare as this fishmonger have too many fishes, he is too gd, i don wan lose him, i believe he may feel the same, as i have prawn ard me, i wan prove to him, i only love him 1 n only, yet donno how, i wan him to feel assure too, but he seem to trust me more den i trust him, not sayin i don trust him, but... i finally understand how they feel... but cancer always feel so insecure, needin lotsa assurance.)

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, January 02, 2008
5:58:00 PM

Yea Yea... happy happy everyday... guess wat, new year comin leh ^^ wow, mean ang bao money comin, mean, keke( guess wat i thinkin)

cant wait to pei my prince go shoppin for his new year stuffs... n he change his idea of a sport bike le... well, actually, its don matter as long as he is happy, but den again, sport bike are exp, but the main concern is that, bike are dangerous... cos i wont wan to lose him...

he goin to start sch next week, so this week, he goin to choing work, earn more, haiz, how i miss him... haha, cannot too rely on him, he will feel a burden n stress. ^^

Will you ever notice me...

Tuesday, January 01, 2008
5:56:00 PM

T.T new year wor, 2008 wor... but guess wat... so many of my frenz put me aeroplane, but oh well, lucky still got my prince and his frenz.. hehe, nice firework~!!! wow, xuan make it juz in time too.

cant really slp well, havin some dreams.. well, maybe i m possessive gua... but oh well, its only a dream...(was abit affected, well cos i mind ma.. hehe, if he is a nobody, i wont mind.) cos i trust my prince n i lurve him~! RAIN FTW!!! 5211314!

now, noone else can really affect my mood, cos i have prince ard(like any other fairytale, the prince always there n protect the princess...) only he can affect it greatly, and i m happy everyday, unlike the old me, i keep being so down, so sad, cryin in the room... till i meet this great guy, whose aim is to make me happy daily. (FM msg me some stuffs, i cant say i aint affected by it, but i kinda like, don feel anything at all, wat is call, tell u a secret, i love u? i don understand... if u love someone, u test her? make her sad? make her wait? make ppl scold and insult n say her?[ now i cant be bothered, i love my prince, fyi, i don change heart once i choose who i love, i love that person wholeheartedly n truely, he is a real decent guy, not any other bastard jerk, why should i wait forever for someone who don give me any answer or any hint? waitin like an ediot? why with someone who i don understand? why not with someone i understand? know wat he know? with a little dash of fun? ]) (he earn it... i aint any cheap gal, who juz fall for juz anyone, u don even bothered to visit me at the hospital, n finding excuses or izzi juz call ma hou bao? happen le den say, wat the use? its not i don care, is u don treasure, so don regret.. anyway, u are still a frenz. i not so petty de, but now in my heart, only got my prince n noone else... not even u. i totally xiang kai le... =D [thks prince, thks for pullin me out of my nightmare, bring a little light to me]

Will you ever notice me...