*[[ Angel full of Lღve]]*

~~Monday, March 31, 2008~~

3:27:00 PM

haiz................ juz now my mum ask to borrow of some cash, well not alot but not very little either... guess my family financial is really havin some prob... wat if i don have it? but den again... i guess i still have that amount rite, afteral, my ang bao money still with me... juz nice all give her... how m i really to survive? oh well, i know i can... like i always do... i really wish to move out... i don wan stay in this place anymore... so tiny, so air-tied... i cant breathe....

last night as i was slpin halfway, i got the shock of my life! a loud bang!!! its was so loud... n i m so scared... really m... it took me awhile to stable down. den i took a look down the window.. there is a car accident at the CTE... two vehicle buang... time is about 12.55am juz nice... i can see it... its near the back of chong boon sec... den the police arrive at bout 1.03 to 1.05am... one car i think... but i saw 5 police officer... this from a high view, den i went back to lie down... with my heart pumpin so fast....

on n off, i keep havin weird dream.. in my dream keep have weird imagine... but den... its always the same person... missing... thinkin of someone... its juz agony... suffering.... haiz.... oh well... beta stop before i get too emo again....

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, March 30, 2008~~

4:59:00 PM

think my mami pms again liao, forever shoutin, wan some peace also cannot, my bro shout with her, shout here n there, den after those, will find other thing to shout at me, like wan eat noodle not, wat eat this not, also use shout, make till i no appetite, den will shout for me go eat... non-stop de leh.... so fuckin fan lor...

really wish to have some peace and quiet when i m so fan enuff... everything is goin ok, quite smooth, while i can only wait... patiently but how much patient do i have? how long more do i need to wait? why izzi that certain ppl can affect me, yet certain ppl i feel so aloof and hack care? hahaha.... idk too... awwwwwwwwwwwww. time pass so slowly sometime....... hoping and hoping... T.T till tears fill my eyes... longing...............................

i guess i really like the show NaNa but why??? hahahaha

really thksful for one of my frenz... send me the songs that i like... Yay~

and ytd i do have a long chat with a frenz... oh well.... we shall seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... tbc.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, March 27, 2008~~

4:57:00 PM

Travel to the moon kimi wa nemuri yume wo toku
Daremo inai hoshi no hikari ayatsuri nagara

Tsuyoku naru tame wasureta egao
Kitto futari nara torimodosu

Kizuite
I'm here waiting for you
Ima to wa chigau mirai ga atte mo
I'm here waiting for you
Sakebi tsuzukete
Kitto kokoro wa tsunagu ito wo tagutteru
Ano koro no watashi me wo samasu you ni
No need to cry

Does the pain stop when u stop loving? or does the wound heal when u found a new love? cos someone is there to stop the thinkin and the hurt? did it really heal? or izzi cos... when u finally understand the root, that why it no longer hurt? or izzi that, u aint thinkin nor touchin it at all, that why u feel immune to it? but does talkin naturally bout it make u fine bout it? wat is call heart pain? why are all this emotion? do they come from ur mind or ur heart? is there really a wounded heart? or its juz all in the mind? izzi u really love a new one or did u sub it over? daijorbu? haha, maybe, cos i also donno. alot of fuckin thing i no longer care... =} i m happy, frankly truely happy... miracle... i found a small light somewhere... its small but i hope it expand... how bout a motivation? i wanna be someone wife and have a cute baby =} so now i will work hard, earn money, save up! stop being so childish n nonsense... why even care bout others? why being bothered by small issues? let juz hack care.. the past is the past... let juz be happy daily and den u will stay young forever. gambateh angel des! i will be strong n prove to those bastard wrong! for not treasurin me! u shall watch out! my aim stay the same. as i was readin my 6yr plan, there are alot i haven done yet... i will be a successful gal! u shall see... i will love myself more... cos lovin other jus hurt.. they always shattered u... hope is nth... its juz to make u feel beta... a tots which only exsist in dreams and fairytale... though i m like hachiko n nobu, hoping for a fairytale in my life, but its kinda hard, everyone got their own story to write... n i m writin n wastin my time too... hachiko, u can do it de! jus sittin ard hopin will get me noway so i will fight for it, u juz wait and see demon lord! buahahahaha~ since its happenin already i shall make it worthwhile and nicer that everyone is jealous of me! =}

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, March 24, 2008~~

4:46:00 PM

yipee.............. tml i goin for a job interview... pay wise not bad... although not really an ideal job, but well, i will take it first =} see how it go... as least it a job, really hope i can get it... pray pray pray.... an improvement to my path to my future, ^^Y i lurve it!.

thinkin of buyin rat poison to kill rats.. but den again... certain thing are enuff to kill it... sometime i wonder. why do ppl wan try certain thingy? knowin its impossible liao... why do they still wan it? why do they still do it? Is the price really so good? den again... so wat if the price is really a gal? wat if, her heart is no longer there? someone took it and nv return it? so wat the point? wat the point in tryin to steal her heart when it already not there at all, can u really find it? wat if she don wan ppl to find it?

mystery are slowly to being unfold... patient will pay off, but den again, how long can i tolerate? temptation? boredom? and many many more... waitin... patiently... cos there is nothin more i can do... it feel terrible.. but aint there a sayin bitter always come before sweet, so it will taste sweeter and u will treasure it more... ok, don have, its my own sayin... xian ku hou tian... gambateh angel-chan! i can do it!!! =}

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, March 23, 2008~~

8:10:00 PM

this comin week, i goin spend some time with frenz.. and tryin very hard to get a work... pray pray pray!!! i muz get a parttime job. don care so much first.... pay also don care first. juz wan some job to spend time....

guess i m really sick le... not only love sick sia... physcially sick too... mentally maybe abit...

lately one of my frenz got some symoptom... i see le also worried for her.. but well, she haven go see doc yet... but standin in her shoes i can understand... the fear... so i wont blame her... but i did help her check up the net... below are some of her symoptom (loss of appetite, loss of sleep, massive loss of hair.... )

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, March 22, 2008~~

4:58:00 PM

ytd was my mum birthday.. was so busy... well, i ended up being kinda disappointed with frenz... incapable. but oh well... but afteral, its a happy day, my mum was happy... but there is something i wish for more... she come thks me, was tiring day... ran alot of places... even bring my little bro along... well, the whole party was a mini one, so i din really spend too much.. as least, still within my means... juz that after this have to be trifty abit lor...

the whote of ytd is so happenin n funny too.... lolz... wat a cake..........

haiz.. lately always got unknown ppl call me... so sian, den tell me rubbish, do make me so upset. oh well... i will juz ignore them.. or fk them... lolz... bully me? try spoilt my mood? oh well... donno. but who know how long will i live?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, March 19, 2008~~

4:59:00 PM

lolz... today receive a register mail =} i m so happy... haha... but something is happenin in my body, i dono wat izzi la.. but its worrying.. yet i don really wish to know either.... cos i m scare....... well... share some songs with u all ba ^^.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, March 17, 2008~~

4:35:00 PM

[16:24:19] <@Kyros> [16:23:pm] ryuuzaki`> redlust`- why u tat time go disturb shinigami
[16:24:19] <@Kyros> [16:23:pm] redlust`-> Ryuuzaki`: fun :D
[16:24:20] <@Kyros> [16:24:pm] ryuuzaki`> they hate u to the core lo
[16:24:39] <@Kyros> [16:24:pm] redlust`-> haha.. their opinions dont matter.
[16:24:53] <@Kyros> [16:24:pm] ryuuzaki`> lol
wow.... seeing that make me think, yea! i was right bout that bitch, but at the same thing, i din really care. wakakaka.... was curious n surprise, yet wonder.. but i have other beta thing to do... anyway thks kyros for lettin me know....

well, i was sick too... need more rest... really do........... =} nitey nite...... love in the the air for alot of my frenz.... but well.. happy for them, but den again, i pity one of my 'frenz' joel... haha! have some a cmi gf............ up to him, he happy can le, but den again, its juz wont last.. wakakaka

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, March 14, 2008~~

10:37:00 PM

another one of those slpless night again... i totally cant explain why... i felt so anxious and bothered... so uneasy and so unpeace...

worried but worried over wat? wat really bothering me? why do i keep toss and turn and cant fall aslp? why do i feel so unpeaceful all of a sudden?

waitin.... waitin alone... but wat m i really waitin for??? i m not sure... if this go on... i donno... i goin to crash into tears soon... hopelessly hidden in my own world... cant share it....

Na na na na
Na na na na yeah
You are the music in me

You know the words Once Upon A Time
Make you listen.
There's a reason.

When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter or a happy ever after

Your harmony to the melody
It's echoing inside my head

A single voice (Single voice)
Above the noise

And like a common thread
Hmm, you're pulling me

When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
Oh, you are the music in me

Yeah it's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
Because you are the music in me

Na na na na (Ohh)
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah (Na na na na)
You are the music in me

It's like I knew you before we met (Before we met)
Can't explain it (Ohh ohh)
There's no name for it (No name for it)

I'm saying words I never said
And it was easy (So easy)
Because you see the real me (I see)
As I am
You understand
And that's more than I've ever known

To hear your voice (Hear your voice)
Above the noise (Ohh ohh)

And no, I'm not alone
Oh you're singing to me (Ohh yeah)

When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong (Yeah ohh)
You are the music in me

It's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
You are the music in me

Together we're gonna sing (Yeah)
We got the power to sing what we feel (What we feel)
Connected and real

Can't keep it all inside (Ohh)

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Yeah yeah yeah (Na na na na)
You are the music in me (In me)

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me

When I hear my favorite song (Favorite song)
I know that we belong (We belong)
You are the music in me

Yeah it's living in all of us
It's brought us here because (Here because)
You are the music in me

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me (Yeah)

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, March 13, 2008~~

4:31:00 PM

wow, been very long since i last slpless... for no reason i cant slp? cant be... well, happy that my Q come in ytd(except for the part bout xs begger)... but i was sick... worried sick? n well, donno la.. more n more moodless liao... i m like wasting my days away... but time juz seem to pass so slow.... i m waiting, but waitin for wat? resume i send daily.. but now den i know my prob... swt...
Sh@wn™ says (4:55 PM):
urs is diploma wad
Sh@wn™ says (4:55 PM):
hr wun wan to hire a person who is overqualified
Sh@wn™ says (4:56 PM):
becos overqualified person wont stay long

i see le, i stun... no wonder i m being ignored... hahaha... so i try others more specific one... today i send 2, hope to get some reply soon... i need a job to actually juz spend time so i don keep my mind running and maybe also on the money side ^^

ytd was real sick... but at night i cant slp at all... thingys are runnin in my mind.. i was worried... and so was i waiting.... but wat for m i doin all this? i cant control... wawa, beta stop, or it will crash me down... wat m i really waiting for? when will it happen? 3 months? 4 months? 6months? haiz... i donno... scared! should i voice out? or should i keep mute? tell? but how tell? do we have time? why think so much? juz seel it... =}

mummy birthday is juz next week, and i haven decide on wat to do, die!

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, March 12, 2008~~

7:22:00 PM

lately tryin to get into my dad good books, wakakaka, actually not really la, i also tryin to hint my mami, well, openly hint. hahaha... well, anyway my dad got his new phone le, and omg, a phone can piss me off sia... hahaha, cos i donno how to operate it... well, i will post up our comin up de phone de pic, cos i m like busy findin songs for my dad...

well to have him agree to stuff, need build up beta relationships ma... well, afteral, one day i m gona marry away, since i m the oldest in the hse, cos my bro so young, its only rite for me to help him now. afteral, comp stuffs aint that hard for me a...

he love teochew and hokkien songs, so i will try search for it, but it hard, harder den chinese and english songs, but well, i wont give up... so any of u whom have it.. do e-mail me and let me know, cos those dialect songs are hard to find, and the cds, are kinda very exp, he not willing to buy, and i haven got a job, cant afford it... ARGH!! i need a job, anyone got job to intro me?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, March 08, 2008~~

9:23:00 PM

haha, Juz another day, do u really think that way, well its aint la... haha... today my bro use my comp till my comp crash sia... zzz, why do kiddos always make comp crash sia... always ask him not to play that game as it always make the comp crash, n he has juz crash one comp totally... now he wanna to spoilt my comp? wtf, den wat i use... den now i juz get to used it not long, he keep pester my mum till my mum force me die die muz give him use, wa lao, this is fuckin unfair la.

today suppose to go out with serena, battie, hei, der, and some other peeps but in the end, i din go, fkin ediot sia, i needa fix the comp... den again... my father say, don use the vocher get my phone, very waste cos the extra cash will be wasted, so get something beta for him, den differently buy my phone... so its more worth... haha i respect it though ^^

wow, ytd i m so happy... feel more n more xin fu... but something kinda piss me off, my frenz's frenz.. someone whose petname is call legend, really think he is one sia, OMFG! so freakin typical despo, sing song also run note n tone, somemore dono whole song, only know one line also wan show off.. omg, somemore so cliche.

but i m kinda worried for a frenz... hahaha... hope he do well at work.. keke... yea!!! patiently waitin n workin hard toward my future! i <3 my bright future! Future FTW!

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, March 06, 2008~~

5:30:00 PM

☆music☆
想喊你却没敢开口
最后只有流着泪看你走
我想问我
是否只愿意就这样放手
既然无法挽留
只好接受
从今以后
你要寂寞多久
谁能给予你
我这般的温柔
也许是多虑了
你离开我会过得更快乐
可对于软弱的我
回忆就足够
分开以后
每当想到你
就会低下头
紧握着手
不知过了多久
我相信你就会有一样的辛酸难受
都曾经深爱过谁
有谁能舍得
在离开你之后
想快乐也只是一种强求
一个人
怎么过都是愁
懂得拥有
却未必能让
你为我停留
最后只剩遗憾
拉住我不放手
☆...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, March 05, 2008~~

5:10:00 PM

Juz now i went to cut my hair... =} hehe, now so coolin... its more short, actually, trim it, thinner it, cut it... haha sound like cut alot hor, but mami say machiam nv cut... (overall all 5bucks) well, quite cheap la... hahaha!!!!

yea... my frenzs ord le.... today got dinner, for it... haha, happy for them.. den some of my frenz goin in le... haha

well, i m totally enlightened.... yea.... totally know wat i m into, know wat i wan... wait n see. everything comin soon and smooth........ =} bring it on, cos i m brave... behold it, yea i win ^^ gosu me.

notes.. know of some stuffs and some truth, omg. so utherly disappointed.... watever lor, care so much for? well, they choose this road, go ahead lor... oh well, juz wait n see.... don regret can liao... =} i m only respecting ur decision ^^.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, March 04, 2008~~

2:45:00 PM

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the true
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams are meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you...

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind...

Because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you……

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, March 03, 2008~~

3:16:00 PM

New Diet Program

A guy calls a company and orders their 5-day, 10-lb weight loss Program.

The next day, there's a knock on the door, and there stands Before him a voluptuous, athletic, 19-year-old babe dressed in nothing but a pair of Nike running shoes and a sign around her neck.

She introduces herself as a representative of the weight loss Company.

The sign reads, 'If you can catch me, you can have me.'

Without a second thought, he takes off after her.

A few miles later huffing and puffing, he finally gives up.

The same girl shows up for the next four days and the same thing happens.

On the fifth day, he weighs himself and is delighted to find he has lost 10 lbs as promised.

He calls the company and orders their 5-day, 20-pound program.

The next day there's a knock at the door and there stands the most stunning, beautiful, sexy woman he has ever seen in his life.

She is wearing nothing but Reebok running shoes and a sign around her neck that reads, 'If you catch me, you can have me'.

Well, he's out the door after her like a shot.

This girl is in excellent shape and he does his best, but no such luck.

So for the next four days, the same routine happens with him gradually getting in better and better shape.

Much to his delight on the fifth day when he weighs himself, he discovers that he has lost another 20 lbs as promised.

He decides to go for broke and calls the company to order the 7-day, 50-pound program.

'Are you sure?' asks the representative on the phone. 'This is our most rigorous program.'

'Absolutely,' he replies, 'I haven't felt this good in years.'

The next day there's a knock at the door; and when he opens it, he finds a huge muscular guy standing there wearing nothing but pink running shoes and a sign around his neck that reads, 'If I catch you, your ass is mine.'

He lost 63 pounds that week

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, March 02, 2008~~

4:25:00 PM

Girl facts:
When you catch a girl
glancing at you,
she wants you to look

When a
girl
says
she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you
are her future

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you
more than that

When a girl is mean to you after a
break-up
she wants you back, but shes
scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever

Guy Facts:
When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine." after
a
few
minutes
he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him
and
wonder s if you do

When your laying your head on a
guy's
chest,
he has the world

When a guy calls/texts/comments you
everyday,
he is in love

When a (good) guy tells you he
loves
you, he
means it

When a guy says he can't live
without
you,
he's with you til your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could
have
ever missed him or anything else

Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really

Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No

Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No

Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No

Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No

Girl: Choose--me or ur life
Boy: my life

The girl runs away in shock and pain
and
the boy
runs after her and says...

The reason you never cross my mind is
because
you're always on my mind.

The reason why I don't like you is
because I love
you.

The reason I don't want you is because
I
need you.

The reason I wouldn't cry if you left
is
because I
would die if you left.

The reason I wouldn't live for you is
because I
would die for you.

The reason why I'm not willing to do
anything for
you is because I would do everything
for
you.

The reason I chose my life is because
you ARE
my life.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, March 01, 2008~~

8:34:00 PM

errr, my phone cui till cannot cui liao, which one beta? cant decide la.. but i know i need a new phone >.< but once i get my new phone. alot of thing will change... anyone got any suggestion? wat will happen den, i really donno.. cos alot of thing i wan or plan to do, after tellin my mum, all have to be push off.. like wat i wan do with the 3K sunperk point, she got other plan, she say why nv this n that, haiz, den ask me go n see n think when she will disagree, den wat for i ask? well, so be it den... ask her, she say donno, tell her, she say this n that...

the days are zoomin in... passin so fast... >.< startin from a 20plus days... now only left 4days... alot alot are goin thru my mind, but as each day passed, i seem to be stronger den before... i have decided on alot of thing and more decision to come... no time for other stuffs... i m totally single but i m also very unavailable... cos its aint time... okok, cos i have my own reasons... all the impt thingy muz come first... its slowly solvin in my mind of wat i wan... wat i should do... its time to grow up, time to plan the future... time to.... okok make it short today... blog till here.. keke... cos mum wan use.

readin back my past post i seem to understand myself abit too.. alot of thing i get too into it... something muz don care... keke, so i more happy... seem to be, i like to be the old aloof me =}

p.s. this post abit fk-up juz now donno why, blogger got prob, make me need to re-blog, i cant rmb clearly wat i blog either.. zzz... nvm... den my mum keep kan me for nth... due to this stupid blogger, everytime i wanna post le, den give me prob, wat their fuckin prob?! cant even let me blog in peace...

Will you ever notice me...