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~~Saturday, November 29, 2008~~

11:44:00 PM

=/ i m feelin moody... i know why... yet i kinda feel like i donno why... XD nvm.. leave myself to me.. i will be fine. i shall hack care. don care. nv care... watever.. not caring wont hurt me XD.... in fact i will be more carefree XD

why do i always have so much to say. when its i feel like sayin. i m jus speechless.. :( upset... totally........ hmmm wait a sec. no i m happy. ok watever... idk wat i m feelin XD ....

nvm. i cant concentrate and blog now. cos my mum naggin beside... i will jus tag a song along....... hope u guys like it...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, November 27, 2008~~

4:20:00 PM

那么一对情侣.女孩很漂亮,非常善解人意,偶尔时不时出些坏点子耍耍男孩.
男孩很聪明,也很懂事,最主要的一点.幽默感很强.
总能在2个人相处中找到可以逗女孩发笑的方式..
女孩很喜欢男孩这种乐天派的心情.
他们一直相处不错,女孩对男孩的感觉,淡淡的,说男孩象自己的亲人..
男孩对女孩爱甚深,非常非常在乎她.所以每当吵架的时候,男孩都会说是自己不好,自己的错.
即使有时候真的不怪他的时候,他也这么说.他不想让女孩生气.

就这样过5年,男孩仍然非常爱女孩,象当初一样.

有一个周末,女孩出门办事,男孩本来打算去找女孩,但是一听说她有事,就打消了这个念头.
他在家里呆了一天,他没有联系女孩,他觉得女孩一直在忙,自己不好去打扰他.
谁知女孩在忙的时候,还想着男孩,可是一天没有接到男孩的消息,她很生气.
晚上回家后,发了条信息给男孩,话说得很重.甚至提到了分手.当时是晚上12点.
男孩心急如焚,打女孩手机,连续打了3次,都给挂断了.打家里电话没人接,猜想是女孩把电话线拔了.
男孩抓起衣服就出门了,他要去女孩家.当时是12点25.
女孩在12点40的时候又接到了男孩的电话,从手机打来的,她又给挂断了.

一夜无话.男孩没有再给女孩打电话.

第2天,女孩接到男孩母亲的电话,电话那边声泪俱下.

男孩昨晚出了车祸.警方说是车速过快导致刹车不急,撞到了一辆坏在半路的大货车.
救护车到的时候,人已经不行了. 女孩心痛到哭不出来,可是再后悔也没有用了.
她只能从点滴的回忆中来怀念男孩带给她的欢乐和幸福.
女孩强忍悲痛来到了事故车停车场,她想看看男孩呆过的最后的地方.
车已经撞得完全不成样子. 方向盘上,仪表盘上,还沾有男孩的血迹.

男孩的母亲把男孩当时身上的遗物给了女孩,钱包,手表,还有那部沾满了男孩鲜血的手机.
女孩翻开钱包,里面有她的照片,血渍浸透了大半张.
当女孩拿起男孩的手表的时候,赫然发现,手表的指针停在12点35分附近.
女孩瞬间明白了,男孩在出事后还用最后一丝力气给她打电话,而她自己却因为还在堵气没有接.
男孩再也没有力气去拨第2遍电话了,他带着对女孩的无限眷恋和内疚走了.

女孩永远不知道,男孩想和她说的最后一句话是什么.
女孩也明白,不会再有人会比这个男孩,更爱她了！

爱上一个人的８个预兆
1.当你正在忙时，却把手机开著，等著她/他的短信..你已经爱上她/他了
2.如果你喜欢和她/他两个人单独漫步..你已经爱上她/他了
3.当你和她/他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当她离/他开你的视线时，你会急著寻找她/他...你已经爱上她了

4.当她/他受伤或生病时，你会很关心她，替她/他著急..你已经爱上他了
5.当她/他和别人要好时，你会感到吃不知其味...你已经爱上他了
6.当你看到她/他那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑..你已经爱上她 / 他了。。。。了...
7.当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到某个人

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, November 26, 2008~~

9:22:00 PM

T.T cant even slp in peace............................... scary monster appear and invade my room!!! somemore at wu lu hr of the day... i saw it at 5am!!! sia la..... scared... >.<

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, November 25, 2008~~

11:09:00 AM

WoW!!!! wat a shock... today i meant to do sometime nice for my bf. to login and explain to her that its not my doing.. but i saw this mail... it really turn me off... WTH IS THIS?! simply threatened me for thing i nv?! AND CALLING ME A DOG?! I WONDER WHO IS THAT BITCH! Zzzz.... she not as kind as innocent... This screenshot will prove that i not lying... Pls get ur fact clear first bitch! don jus simply jump to conclusion... i have much more better thing to do den be that childish! and i don even care who ur bf.. i only love mine!!!

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, November 24, 2008~~

9:07:00 PM

:( it feel so horrible to get framed... with something so horrible... is trust lackin in us? well. i know i trust him. i like to joke at times... but not too serious de... I DON DO SUCH LOW CLASS THING!!!

i m someone who dare to do. i dare to admit! don jus jump to conclusion....... :( *hurts* i feel like i got stab in the heart from my bk... not knowin wat happen and suddenly i feel a sharp pain... who is the killer? why is he tryin to kill me? is someone tryin to break us up?

i....... donno wat to do. how to save him? how to save myself? how to solve this prob... i m so sad rite now................... cant stop crying... i goin to my room.... blog tml. i m kinda upset bout alot of thing now..................

wat m i suppose to do.......................................................................................................... T.T

T.T i really din do it... why should i apologize? doesn't that mean i admit its my fault? but i really din do it. its not me... where the real culprit? i know u care bout frens... but... idk.. maybe frens meant more to u... more impt den ur gf........ i m gettin sicker. yet.............. is everything really my fault? should i be kind? and shoulder everything and keep my saddness to myself?? maybe u love her not me.... but i really love u....... i really din do it... i wont force u to believe me. my conscience is clear.... i m innocent... why do ppl think i m a bitch? do they so hate me? its ok.. i will be bk to my old self. lock myself up in my room... wall myself. cry in the small lil dark corner... awaitin a mircale... i m quiet and blank... tired of acting happy when i m not... i admit i was happy after knowin him.. but at times. i felt upset and jealous. yet i don wan him to be unhappy knowin i m very upset. so i brush it off at times... i m chatty. noisy... yet now i feel black. so colourless... so speechless................. i m so myself. always myself. don like wearin mask.... being open. showin my bare self... izzi wrong? why do some ppl thing i m wearin mask? m i not honest enuff? T.T upset.... sometime i feel more upset. seeing someone u care so much upset... should i wear a mask and shoulder up the fault? although its not me??? so he can get his frens bk?? wat should i do???

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, November 22, 2008~~

8:09:00 PM

XD. hahaha. today den i found out. my ex-frens(ex-sis also) say i m a physco. nah. go ahead and think i m crazy. and flirt all u wan. wanna try and steal other ppl's guy also not usin this way lil gal... regreted makin frens with u. regreted being kind and nice to u. tryin to return good with bad... u better watch out. tryin to corrupted and spoilt his mind. tryin to break ppl up? Ha Ha Ha... u careful of retribution! Don think idk wat u tryin to do u this bitch! don try to do funny thing or play mind game with me...

should i be feelin more secure? or m i in more fear? hmmm.... she told him this too... "how can u love someone u never touch or kiss." quoted from her as well... guess they whispering all the time.. hahaha....

today my bf play a joke... =/ its kinda not funny. yet.. shockin... lucky its only a joke. if not i dono wat to do... at a lost =/ hahahaha....

ytd i watch a show and notice wat it say it rite... we seem to close the door to our heart and build a wall.. unless u can find the right key to communicate.

and ytd a guy frens of mine. suddenly intro himself to me. hahaha... but got turn down... i told him. we cant communicated. nth to say to u. XD...

now i suddenly feel stone. donno wat to say. why do i always have so much to comments... yet suddenly feel quiet. donno how to put it into words? hmmmmmm. nvm.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, November 20, 2008~~

1:07:00 PM

haha. same old thing everyday... waking up and 1st thing in the mornin i get yelled at... haha since i m awake. i got yell at non-stop. but there is always something which make me wait patiently till evening.. something which make me happy...

today is my uncle 2nd Seven.. so my mum went over to help... so today i needa bring my bro to sch and shop for some nessecity. and den fetch my bro home later... and buy some desserts. hahahaha.... so well-planned.. at least it occupy my mind....

lately i keep havin weird dreams.. slowly lostin all my confidents.... who and wat to trust. is my heart able to judge anymore? how come i feel so... m i blinded? issi a good thing?? hehehe... maybe it is... i feel half in heaven. half in hell... hehe.. Ha Ha Ha!

today i found out something... something which i found it unbelievable... oh well. i m frank and i do wat i think is right. i demand answer. don like question mark and i will get the truth no matter wat... today i keep listening to lishengjie song.. they are so nice... but i don dare anyhow post. hahaha i scare he misunderstand. but they are so nice... :/ feel like sharing. hahaha....

hmmm. if u found out. ur bf ask another gal to call him love and she did? and he call her love too? how will u be feeling?? shock? Ha Ha Ha.. i m near to tears yet i feel nth... i m pissed yet i felt quiet... contridict myself... even i don understand why? issi that i predict it? hahaha... i bet everyone hate me now. for being bitchy. but i don care anymore... i hate everyone too!. ok maybe i don... :( i feel so fragile and soft now.. so useless. its always take two hand to clap... if someone ask u eat shit. u will eat it? if u don. noone can force u. not like they take a gun and point at u rite? really don understand... who can sit and listen and explain to me and help me? hahahaha.... i know my blog can let me complain. :) sweee...... k la... i need go and busy le... i blog later :)

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, November 18, 2008~~

9:04:00 PM

:( seem like i m either hate or dislike.............................. i m upset. so very upset.... ppl are tryin to steal my love away.......... i feel like a walkin corpse now.... bleedin..................... hmmm. i know lately the post kinda emo.. well i don wan it either...

why is my bf callin other gal love, hun? and so much thing?? aint love call jus for couple?? how will he feel if i do that? does he know two can play this game? but i wont be so childish.. :) maybe human are jus selfish. that include me... wat to do. other gal are cuter... game suck. it jus suck... it spoilt everything.... miserable...........

even mum know. she jus keep quiet now... hahaha... she saw the video and like it too...

sigh... why do i feel so upset. so miserable??? i saw with my own eyes. he askin for invite on ym from another gal... he askin for pic from gals too.. =/ i felt so jealous. so unhappy.... suddenly i cant stop my tears. i feel my heart stop beatin... life is filled with lies... but white lies are good. its comfy to hear. and easy to forgive :) and simply we are jus fine again...

but my heart hurtin so badly today.... is my frens really my frens? are they there to spoilt and break me up? or to help me??? who can be trusted? who cant? to think he say that out so easily... u can leave if u wan... does he care? it hurt..... jus too hurt................... i m so shattered now........................................... my life feel grey............ m i really so blind? i tot i found wat i wan... my mum keep bring me back to the cruel world. ask me see wat in wlo... it hurt. that game suck. it bring nth but saddness...... I HATE THAT GAME TO THE CORE NOW... burn it....

ha ha ha... but at the end of the day. i m fine again. i always pick myself up... m i really so strong?? i know i m fragile. i felt like i cant breathe... the air so tight... my chest so tight... i know i used to keepin thing to myself. closin an eye. cos i care... i tot findin an excuse to forget. i will be better. but sometime its better to say it.. so they know wat wrong. rite? hahahaha.... will human change? a leopard nv change its spot. does it...

T.T why did u wan me away? when u know i cant lose u?? are u tryin to ask me to go and die? oh man. i m so not ok today. i m so... grrrrr..... if u wanna leave. pls kill me first.

family prob are gathering. mum always scold till she cry. i need a chill and a breath out soon. but i don feel like goin out.... lately. i keep seein thing when i close my eyes.. even i cant explain it. its jus so weird...

sigh. i mind i mind i mind!! i mind so many thing... but who wont XD YiPeeee.................... hahahahahaaaa...................... i m not that perfect as everyone think. jus that i know how to think yet i don wan to say... =/ human are so complicating... they always contridict themself.

i feel so unwelcome............ so.... hard... in my hse. everyday seem like a torture. i wanna get out. as in really leave forever... alot alot on my mind. make me cannot think. mind blank.... who and where m i......... haha... hope i don collaspe and faint or suddenly memories lost XD.... hehehe... suddenly... i m sot................ blog tml ba...... cos idk wat m i sayin le...

Will you ever notice me...

3:20:00 PM

T.T how long more can i stand it... oh man. i don even freakin know wat m i sayin at all... i m tired.................. suffering in silent........... breakin down soon............................ stop torturin me....

hahaha... donno wat i complainin also....................

i suddenly feel like learnin how to read body language. impt.. hehe... i blog more later....

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, November 17, 2008~~

9:29:00 PM

i m really annoyed.... frustrated... upset........... but nvm... i m jus speechlesss. Ha Ha Ha.......

insecurity rox XD ha ha ha!!!! maybe i doubt too much... but why do i always spot on...

shit are happenin at home........ yet................ ya rite... watever... don feel like sayin today.......... tolerate...................... Ha ha ha! i m deaf... all the blamin. naggin. shoutin. yellin. cursin. insultin.. get used to it... Ha Ha Ha.... another day pass. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...........................

HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, November 16, 2008~~

11:15:00 PM

T.T how i wish one day have more den 24hr... its totally not enuff time for me to do everything and anything.... sometime when ur free. other got busy... and u need to spend time waitin... why is my parents so ganchoing spider...

maybe i think too much, worried too much. but i jus don feel right bout certain thing.. i m worried... for god sake... sigh... nvm.... maybe i m jus feelin irritated and annoyed.... who wont. when u got such ppl at home... sian.... zzzzz. super damn no mood....

don have enuff time for myself and others... why cant she jus freakin let me play the comp in my room. zzz. retarded. only 1 word. siansation...............

i need time.. i need maximum usage... dono wat her prob.. control everything like a control freak... i aint no kids...... damn it.........

ok. that it... i heard something... i got nth else to say........ life suck i guess............. damn upsetting.............

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, November 14, 2008~~

5:56:00 PM

awww. today friendster seem to be down the whole day... make me cant seem to use it...

:( i set my alarm at 8am. i wakey and i make it snooze. thinkin it will ring 10min later. but omg. i jus sleep thru it.... gosh... so tired =x how come... hahaha. i practically slp till noon... after wakey. went to my parents room. *shock* hehe mum usin my comp.. so i jus lie on the bed... opsy.... doze off again... hehe... feel bad.....

how come i feel so tired this few days... gosh... hehehe. i found a great songs... suit wat i m thinkin now... hehe except he is more den jus a frens.. i love him.... =3 hehe... my mami know how to sing bring me to you heart.. its so cool... i heard her singin jus now.. i think maybe due to me keep replayin it XD.. hehe...

I got alot things
I have to do..
All these distractions
Our futures coming soon
We're Being pulled 100 different directions
But whatever happens I know Ive got you

Your on my mind your in my heart
It doesnt matter where we are
It'll be alright
Even if we're miles apart

All I wanna do, Is be with you be with you
Theres nothing we can do Just wanna be with you
Only you
No matter where life takes us nothing can break us apart..
You know its true
I just wanna be with you

(Be with you)

You know how life can be
It changes over night
Its sunny but raining, but its alright
A friend like you..
Always makes it easy
I know that your kidding me everytime.

Through every up through every down
You know I'll always be around
Through everything you can count on me..

All I wanna do, Is be with you be with you
Theres nothing we can do Just wanna be with you
Only you
No matter where life takes us nothing can break us apart..
You know its true
I just wanna be with you

I just wanna be with you...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, November 13, 2008~~

6:41:00 PM

T.T i m so so upset. really hate my bro so much today.. why did he anyhow type!! he cos a big big misunderstand... :( i m so so upset................. i wish thing will be better now... T.T why why why!! pls someone help me T.T

i hate my bro!!! why does he have such a itchy hand. why does he always come and anyhow type on my keyboard.... I HATE HIM!!!! how i wish i can kill him. he always leave the mess for me to clean up. but this time. the mess is too big.

my mum did stood up and try to help me clear. but i think its gona leave a scar. i m so so scare of losin him T.T but prob keep happen... i pray.. pls let all thing get smoother everyday... and not givin me prob... no matter how strong my heart may be... one day i will collapse.

ouch... my hand hurt so badly cos i slam the wooden bed...... :( so red and swollen........

Will you ever notice me...

4:03:00 PM

VALUABLE advice
Take 2 minutes and read through this; you will be amazed at what you can learn!

Bed Sheets
After drying sheets, put both sheets and one pillowcase in the other pillow case. Fold neatly in a square. Next time you change sheets, you just take the one pillow case and all the sheets and pillow case are inside. No need to look for matches.

Reheat Pizza
Heat up leftover pizza in a non-stick skillet on top of the stove, set heat to med-low and heat till warm. This keeps the crust crispy. &n bsp;No soggy micro pizza. I saw this on the cooking channel and it really works.

Reheating refrigerated bread
To warm biscuits, pancakes, or muffins that were refrigerated, place them in a microwave with a cup of water. The increased moisture will keep the food moist and help it reheat faster.

Broken Glass
Use a dry cotton ball to pick up little broken pieces of glass - the fibers catch ones you can't see!

Easier thank you's
When you throw a bridal/baby shower, buy a pack of thank you cards for the gues t of honor. During the party, pass out the envelopes and have everyone put their address on one. When the bride/new mother sends the thank you's, they're all addressed!

Name tag
If you purchase a new bike for your child, place their picture inside the handle bar before placing the grips on. If the bike is stolen and later recovered, remove the grip and there is your proof who owns the bike.

Flexible vacuum
To get something out of a heat register or under the fridge add an empty paper towel roll or empty gift wrap roll to your vacuum. It can be bent or flattened to get in narrow openings.

Reducing Static Cling
Pin a small safety pin to the seam of your slip and you will not have a clingy skirt or dress. Same thing works with slacks that cling when wearing panty hose. Place pin in seam of slacks and -- voila -- static is gone.

Measuring Cups
Before you pour sticky substances into a measuring cup, fill it with hot water. Dump out the hot water, but don't dry the cup. Next, add your ingredient, such as peanut butter, and watch how easily it comes right out.

Foggy Windshield?
Hate foggy windshields? Buy a chalkboard eraser and keep it in the glove box of your car. When the windows fog, rub with the eraser!
Works better than a cloth!

Reopening envelope
If you seal an envelope and then realize you forgot to include something inside, just place your sealed envelope in the freezer for an hour or two. Voila! It unseals easily.

Conditioner
Use your hair conditioner to shave your legs. It's a lot cheaper than shaving cream and leaves your legs really smooth. It's also a great way to use up the conditioner you bought but didn't like when you tried it in your hair...

Good-bye Fruit Flies
To get rid of pesky fruit flies, take a small glass fill it 1/2 with Apple Cider Vinegar and 2 drops of dishwashing liquid, mix well. You will find those flies drawn to the cup and gone forever!

Get Rid of Ants
Put small piles of cornmeal where you see ants. They eat it, take it 'home,' & can't digest it so it kills them. It may take a week or so, esp. if it rains, but it works & you don't have the worry about pets or small children being harmed!

Take baby powder to the beach
Keep a small bottle of baby powder in your beach bag. When you're ready to leave the beach sprinkle yourself and kids with the powder and the sand will slide right off your skin.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, November 12, 2008~~

8:32:00 PM

:( end of my peaceful days.. since ytd when mum got back... she seem to nag and yell nonstop. hahaha donno why also. oh well. maybe its her habit.

thinkin bout my cousin and some stuffs. i feel kinda sad... so poor thing......

i suddenly tot i love my life. or maybe i don anymore... i tot i found a reason to live... i found someone who is there and so great... will ie still be there 10yr down the road? why is our path so hard to walk? i miss u day and night... hoping u will be right by my side soon... i know its take a lot of work... and your workin hard... i will do my part too... sometime i feel like the time pass so fast. yet the day pass so slow...

sometime we may accidentally hurt someone feelin. but its not on purpose. we try to spare a tots. yet something. it jus happen... how do we fix the prob? giving and taking... yet something. wat we think of doin it for other. may end up hurtin them.. why is everything jus so complicated? i know i can do it and i know i will. believing in myself and him... and also our love... and i believe in fate... :) it will work out fine. it always did..........

i think i really found wat i wan... i wont care wat other thing even if they luff at me... i think i found a school too. i will read up more on it. :)

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, November 10, 2008~~

9:29:00 PM

other den the ongoing funeral thing. my bro fall real ill. needa take care of him. his fever is gettin high. i even help with housework.... and i bring him to see a doc... hopefully he will feel better... i m so tired and stress... alot of thing to handle... my mind is in a mess.. i din sleep for 3rd day dy i think...

T.T i m feel so upset today... really very very heartbreak. idk how to explain why i feel so shattered... my tears jus wont stop flowin... :( no matter how i try to wipe it away... it will flow again... i m totally speechless... lucky my parents are not home. i don wan them to see me cryin...

i hate my intuition... really really hate it. i hate it for being accurate... i m losin myself...

i was so happy daily. so blessful.. i really love him... can anyone teach me wat to do? i believe noone can... i cant control another person life.. it hurt so bad. but the love is too deep... comparin. i cant lose him... don wan to either... i m scare.... really scare... he is so far away now.. i cant do anything... i feel so helpless and useless... i trust him 100% with my whole heart. but... i keep feelin so insecure.. T.T

idk how to put those emotion from my hearts to words.... i donno how long mroe can i hold on either.. i know i m fallin sick... i know i miss him... i really wish he will be by my side and not find other gal... regardless of wat. i know i cant be selfish. i felt like i cant breathe... i suddenly feel blank... i no longer got anymore appetite... don wanna talk dy...

T.T i still cant stop my tears...................................

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, November 09, 2008~~

12:13:00 PM

:) thks kitty for specially makin this video jus for me. i really like it :)

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, November 08, 2008~~

12:14:00 AM

hmmm. donno should i smile or cry. well. jus home after celebratin my cousin 21st birthday. so happy birthday to her... :) wow happy for her that she got a nice bf. XD so sweet. nice flower. nice pics.

next. i got bad bad news.. my 4th uncle pass away.. :( its sad... but its peaceful cos he can stop suffering.. i m contridictin myself i know.. well wat to do. i m at a lost of words too u know... feelin upset... nvm... i gona be busy for the next few days... i will update again....

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, November 06, 2008~~

11:05:00 PM

love really is like coffee... so sweet so much aroma... yet sometime its so bitter... :( love really is blind... but why do i always cant feel secure for some reason. is knowin too much really so bad.. but yet i cant help knowin the truth... :( sad sad sad... love can be like candy too. there are sweet juicy candy. yet sometime there is some sour one... it can be both healthy like herbal sweet. or bad thing. cos it may make u fat. or maybe tooth decay? and many other more... dilemma...

the more i love the more i scare... sometime it jus hurt for no gd reason. u get jealous at the smallest thing. u can trust.. but security is something which don come easy.. oh man. believe in fate den. wat urs is urs. but in the end. its easier to say den done XD.

another thing. i really need to see bout frens. how come i cant seem to trust some ppl. yet i let them do wat they wan? cant goin on. why did i always contridict myself? does truth always hurt. no it doesn`t. sometime it make u understand thing even more clearly. not to make the same mistake... truth is always the best thing. forgivin may be easy but its nv easy to forget.

sometime wat u wan. u may not get... cos u cant control wat other are thinkin or doin. u can only make urself clear and stat ur stand...

wow... too much on my mind to continue bloggin. i will continue another day XD. another of my long long speeches......... hehehe................

Will you ever notice me...