freakin bias. ANGRY!!! rage!!!! argh! i feel like i wanna kill ppl. !!! i toatlly do!! im so mad. zzz that fuckin unfair. always side her son. don even wanna say him. always brushin me off sayin that. well i scold him not infront of u. did u hear that? FK U LA! as if u did. when i aint home, he aint ard either. did u even scold him? u push all the shyt to me. im fkin doin everything. n ur fkin son? DID NTH! 0!! now sayin i bark like a dog. FINE!!! i bark. w/e alawys say i nag. yea? so?! i learn it from u. ur the one who nag nonstop at me. only know how to nag nonstop at me. since when do u nag nonstop or yell at ur son?! freakin NO!!! always only me!!! so freakin bias. im so fed up. so only the boy in the family is bigshot? aint gal also human. so wat if i mthly stuffs. sayin that i bark like a dog eh, cos of that, cos mood bad. did u even know wat ur fkin son say or do? all he care is whether his ice-cream melt. HE IS SICK!! UR THE ONE WHO SAY NO CHOCLATE ICE-CREAM BUT DEN?! he still eatin it!! WAT BIG FAT LIAR!!! ask me to teach him math eh,. he don even fuckin listen at all... only orh me. den when say he know. n guess wat. when he start doin? TAKE SO LONG!! cos he say he need to think. den when u ask him,. he say he dono how do!! WTF!!! i even explain n write everything down. so wat this tell u?! he don even fuckin listen at all!!! when he fail or bad grade wat did u do? JUS BLAME N SCOLD ME!! scold ur fkin son for god sake. he the one don wanna listen at all!!

now exam period. less den 2wks. guess wat? everyday comp game. ps1. tellin u fail only wat. nvm la... so on all those shy. den u okok go play. he say 1hr u ok! his result bad. u nag him only awhile. but last time u scold me so fkin mths!!! compare me wif cousin all those!!! now? u did nth!!! SHYT U!!! while only naggin him awhile. u forever blamin, the one who know don wan to teach. or u will go. he follow u. always game. so wat? even u this mum also gaming away!! wat rites have u got to lecture me?! tuition. sayin that i have tuition. as if that my choice. i don wan it either. ur the one who wan it. yeayea. sayin end up get cheated. so? last time tuition where got now so cheap? can under CDAC!!? use ur fkin brain. the whole time. ur quiet when i say ur son. den now u nag at me n say me only! ur son?!!! u nv even say much!! say a few line. den turn back at me n yell!! fkin UNFAIR!!!!

whole morning since i woke up.. i jus woke up n ur home n u keep nag at me sayin i din help u wash dish, u already wrote on paper! pls. i jus freakin wake up only!! cant u ask ur son too. he jus beside u!!... as if im the only child. or m i jus ur maid. all the labour work n yellin jus at me. zzz he come wif other excuses don need wash. drag abit. don need wash. sayin i so old. don wan help u. sayin this n that. all are jus excuses.. always think bout the small one only. or should i say the boy!! everytime!! be it food or stuffs.! its jus so unafir. i work so hard. beg so long to get some stuffs i wan after so many years. n now. all he need to ask abit. n he got it. sometime he don even need ask.!! zzz i wish i was nv here... only sadness in this place.. zzz fine i wash. all of ytd whole day dishes... cant he help abit too? his mind only eat n play n eat n eat n eat.... his mouth cant stop moving... after dinner. fruits. den snack n more snackss... i don even wan to eat sometime. den u will go eat fruits. eat this n that.. cant later? at this rate sure to be fat!! den say im fat. w/e shyt!!!!

he can alawys slap me or beat me n den get away wif it. den u'll always jus say that im whiney n so on!! but if i ever beat him.. u will scold the hell out of this? wat a big diff in treatment. den u'll go yea la ya la im bias la. after i say that out. but look at the way u handle stuffs. always claimin that u regret giving birth to me. I TELL U! I DON EVEN WANNA BE ALIVE OR HERE!! i hate this place man.. zzz. why izzi that if u wanna get something or fix something. iots always i have to do it. if i don help. u always say. the one who know don wanna help n so on... n alawys sayin im so free. don wan help u. i have stuffs to do too. i know sometime u jus wan the comp to play game. zzz bitch... n when i need some cd. u alawys say im so free cant ownself find. den why do i have to do everything when u guys jus sit ard n wait for the benefit later on? im not then only one using it.. after the download n stuffs. u guys jus sit there n watch the show n enjoy all the benefit after i done all the tough labour work of it. cant u jus help abit? even gettin the cd or something? as if i know where u keep it.

always say that my room is untidy but have u ever tots. all those shyt inside there aer hardly mibne.. donno whose toy. whose cardboard. wif all those cans food. all those boxes. they are not mine at all and that table... they are all not mine!! it jus feel like a store-room!!! say i nv pack my drawer. everything u pack something else. u jus shove it into my drawer claimin its mine. but den its might not be. u jus throw all into my drawer den say im messy. ur the root of it!!!

i still have so much angry so much stuffs. i can type this forever... but im tired of talkin.. talkin bout it nv solve anything... it nv does at all.. it jus always u cursing me and so on... haiz.. nvm i got no heart anymore. its jus as dark as the dave. as hard as the stone... forget it. cos nth goin to help anyway... too tired.. give up le... haiz.... nvm don wanna say le. or nexttime when i feel like it...