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两个世界的人，可以是朋友、可以是仇人、可以错身而过，但是如果 他们相爱了，结局只有走上灭绝的命运。就像飞鸟恋上鱼，拼了命想 厮守一起，但却是害了对方，毁了自己。
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Lyrics of the song "Notice Me" by Zetta Bytes
slowly, day by day... im losing my heart... im losing my love and other emotion while my anger grew.. feeling more n more sadness in my life... dying soon feel like the only option... im so filled with darkness and sadness that i felt so lonely... i cant even feel the love. becos im covered in grieve... dying might be stupid an excuse. but its seem like a release... to get away.. i wanna be free.. free from this agony.. day n day. words keep running in my mind but i refuse to blog it out, now that i sit here.. words feel trap in my mind n wont flow... what the point of living when ur mom always side ur younger bro. when u complain or tell her what ur bro did. all she did is sit there n play her comp... or just aknowlegde with a "ahnor" den continue to click her comp. while when ur bro complain or say anything. u get scolded n shout at immediately. what a huge diff... even when u complain. ur mom just going to scold u... saying ur so troublesome. annoying. always make trouble. ask u get married n get out of house.. marrying seem like another option. i might do it without love.. just to get out of this dark place.. maybe i really nv will ever be happy. how to.. its so easy to pretend to smile.. im just her sandbag. vent her anger, throw her burden.. has she really care about me? NO!. i wanna die... i do.. i guess im preparing? which parent wake up at night to sit beside their child n scold n shout. my soul is too shattered.. some scar nv heal. which parent curse at their own kids? wishing them to die? which parent tell their kid that, they should have abort him. ah yes.. mine did.. memories of sch bullied keep coming back.. im so so wounded... i wanna get out but i cant.... so trapped.... trapped in darkness. i always rmb my mom saying must be my fault, just tolerate.. but till now. its nv over... noone heal me.. this scar will nv healed. im always reminded of it. cos even my bro bully me.... anything he said. i get chilled at.. but what i say, he get off scotfree.... im so brokenhearted that i think i don have one.. i have no mercy.. its all a pretence now.. to be fine. to shutup.. when did inside.. im crying and bleeding. pain feel like the only thing i feel now... mayb, just mayb.. when i lost my final control... my heart will stop beating. and i will finally be freed.. ppl said that ppl who suicide will nv be reborn as human cos its a sin. but what for living... what the point....... i wanna die....... a quick death is better den being tortured to death mentally................ like this.............. fade away. don think anyone mind if im gone. since im so loathe.........
